So as a couple of Danes seems to have noted, my favorite topic has landed in the press again. NemID and the implications of it's usage in a profit driven sector.
Actually i just had my hard encounter with it. Not having ever accepted the Terms of Usage, provided by both NemID OCES 2, and E-Boks, I am not upheld by the laws to actually using the system. The funny construction is that even as I refuse to accept the conditions, the product is provided to me. By laws I have no ownership or responsibility of the system, and the users of the system don't have responsibility for anything posted for the E-Boks system as their responsibility ends with the act of posting. The fact no one according to laws have access to the information therein and no one have responsibility of the information within that system. It's a wonderful catch 44 construction.
What worries me though is the fact that the products have been created and can't, even though it's part of the conditions, be deleted. Anyway that isn't my point, as that's old news and nothing have changed in that construction, whether it's intentional or not.
What has changed is that recently the sales of the system to an investing group of United States.
Nothing in this is much of a surprise really, but the public reaction to it is a surprise.
Suddenly people are somewhat aware that when a US based corporation owns your login credentials, the information therein is no longer secret. Nor is it a secret anymore that there's quite financial gain to be had from gathering the Meta data of all people in DK.
Of course, it haven't reached that level yet, but it's slowly building that way.
At time of writing the idea and general optics are that with NemID ownership, US corporation will have unlimited access to any bids put out by a danish corporation, and will misuse that to their advantage in a negotiation where it would prove profitable.
Again this isn't new, with recent times of poking around what the NSA had access to, that's old news again. Yet to the public it's new and outrageous.
The default stance by the government is still that using that information is illegal and therefore misuse will not happen... One would wonder if they really are that naive and stupid.
Corruption would be an option, but somehow I don't think it. Frankly I'm starting to believe they really are that naive and stupid.
Bottom line is that this summer will see the legislative figth over this crap, how and when someone will be outed with hands too deep in the wrong pockets is still an open question. frankly it could take many years before that happens, I just hope it happens before I'm completely dragged through the system. I need the believe that my efforts are not futile.
Monday, February 17, 2014
Thursday, October 10, 2013
When is it too much?
For the past week or so I've noticed my G+ feed acting a little strange compare to what I was used to. And I found out why.
Back when i started the stream was cronologic, meaning that a post made at 10 would preceded a post made at 11 O'clock. This has changed.
Back in January when i still spend a bit of time going through my facebook wall, I noticed the same behavior, and i used quite a while to consistently sort the stream from "most relevant" to "by time". In the beginning I accepted it a a new feature and the fact that the setting back to relevant was based on bugs and behaviour shaping. After all Facebook is a business and they hae interest in making me consider something relevant according to their sales rather then my personal preferences. Knowing this it was irritations and fueled further my detachment from facebook, and spawned yet another good arguments as why facebook was the evil of this world.
By the time I left I've grown completely detached to my stream and didn't bother sorting it anymore, knowingly scrolling down the list to find the post i had interest with or simply ignoring it.
For those not knowing where this idea comes from, it was made public knowledge a few years back when Mark Zuckenberg (the FB founder), proclaimed that in today's world it was often the case that a squirrel dying in your backyard was more important news to you, then the fact that the danish social security numbers database has been hacked and is now public knowledge. Even if your danish this statement holds true.
Eli Fennell did a very nice TED talk about it, he's on G+ look him up.
Now for those that won't bother with TED, here's the effect of what's going on: All content provided to you is filtered in some way. The main motif is of course first off attention, second off it's earnings. These are mechanisms we're familiar with, just look for bill boards, or other add in your surroundings.
So what's my problem?
My problem is that something is being filtered away from my perspective, and I need to make a concerted effort for finding it. In a rush i most likely won't see it and it'll disappear in the masses. Then again what would i be missing out on?
Well everything that I have special or geeky interest in. everything that isn't mainstream, so frankly everything I actually want to know.
on the other hand what I gain is that everything I have an interest in that is mainstream will be smeared my my face until I'm ready to puke.
My opinion of things will be shaped to conform.
I miss my G+ stream freedom. If anyone can tell me how to get it back I'd be very happy, but this philosophy of the dead squirrel will not go away soon, and I don't think the masses will reject it as only a select few understands what going on. It saddens me this is the way things are heading.
Back when i started the stream was cronologic, meaning that a post made at 10 would preceded a post made at 11 O'clock. This has changed.
Back in January when i still spend a bit of time going through my facebook wall, I noticed the same behavior, and i used quite a while to consistently sort the stream from "most relevant" to "by time". In the beginning I accepted it a a new feature and the fact that the setting back to relevant was based on bugs and behaviour shaping. After all Facebook is a business and they hae interest in making me consider something relevant according to their sales rather then my personal preferences. Knowing this it was irritations and fueled further my detachment from facebook, and spawned yet another good arguments as why facebook was the evil of this world.
By the time I left I've grown completely detached to my stream and didn't bother sorting it anymore, knowingly scrolling down the list to find the post i had interest with or simply ignoring it.
For those not knowing where this idea comes from, it was made public knowledge a few years back when Mark Zuckenberg (the FB founder), proclaimed that in today's world it was often the case that a squirrel dying in your backyard was more important news to you, then the fact that the danish social security numbers database has been hacked and is now public knowledge. Even if your danish this statement holds true.
Eli Fennell did a very nice TED talk about it, he's on G+ look him up.
Now for those that won't bother with TED, here's the effect of what's going on: All content provided to you is filtered in some way. The main motif is of course first off attention, second off it's earnings. These are mechanisms we're familiar with, just look for bill boards, or other add in your surroundings.
So what's my problem?
My problem is that something is being filtered away from my perspective, and I need to make a concerted effort for finding it. In a rush i most likely won't see it and it'll disappear in the masses. Then again what would i be missing out on?
Well everything that I have special or geeky interest in. everything that isn't mainstream, so frankly everything I actually want to know.
on the other hand what I gain is that everything I have an interest in that is mainstream will be smeared my my face until I'm ready to puke.
My opinion of things will be shaped to conform.
I miss my G+ stream freedom. If anyone can tell me how to get it back I'd be very happy, but this philosophy of the dead squirrel will not go away soon, and I don't think the masses will reject it as only a select few understands what going on. It saddens me this is the way things are heading.
Tuesday, October 1, 2013
Frustration
I've been encouraged to write more often and shorter posts, here's one:
Yep I've stolen it, but atleast I'm leaving the captation on it :)
So I ended up spending the better part of my nigth doing what nerds do: Develop.
This is nothing new, I tend to end up sitting in front of a screen, spending way too much time doing something that seems really simple, but for some reason I don't understand it, and I'm doing something wrong.
It's usually ends up being hours on hours on hours figuring out what a specific parameter of some program is doing, and what the effects are.
So after 5 hours of researching, tinkering I got the conclusion I started with (I was right).
What did I get from all that brainexploding? Confirmation!?!
5 hours constantly in the same state as the kitty there, no new retained usefull knowledge, no newly learned skill, no nothing, except confirmation.
How do I stop looking like a kitty?
I reside, retire, accept the state of things.
Would you?
Yep I've stolen it, but atleast I'm leaving the captation on it :)
So I ended up spending the better part of my nigth doing what nerds do: Develop.
This is nothing new, I tend to end up sitting in front of a screen, spending way too much time doing something that seems really simple, but for some reason I don't understand it, and I'm doing something wrong.
It's usually ends up being hours on hours on hours figuring out what a specific parameter of some program is doing, and what the effects are.
So after 5 hours of researching, tinkering I got the conclusion I started with (I was right).
What did I get from all that brainexploding? Confirmation!?!
5 hours constantly in the same state as the kitty there, no new retained usefull knowledge, no newly learned skill, no nothing, except confirmation.
How do I stop looking like a kitty?
I reside, retire, accept the state of things.
Would you?
Tuesday, September 24, 2013
Being insecure.
So this entry is actually inspired by a Co Blogger, that made an entry much like this.
At first i figured I'd just throw her a comment, but the more I started thinking about what to put in writing, and reading the other comments. The less I wanted to add directly to it.
If you're fine with Danish: Linky, otherwise try the translator.
So being insecure, doubting ones worth. Does that sound familiar to you personally?
It's a fact that most people feel insecure once in a while, trouble is when you feel insecure all the time.
We're a few people that tick this way, quite a few actually. When someone tells me that I'm good at something, my mental process kicks in trying to figure out what the frag I'm done so wrong the other guy feels shamed to point it out, and needs to find something random to divert attention from whatever I've done.
Growing up being told your stupid, when you're not. Being told you're ugly when you're not, and so on.
A bit back i saw a YouTube link to a video of a little girl telling the camera how she was worth nothing and the like. I didn't watch the movie myself, once I via the comments saw what it was, I didn't need to. I've lived that life. I AM the most stupid person on the planet, I AM not most annoying person that ever lived.
I know this as I know breathing under water is difficult at least. (under special conditions that statement is false).
Much like the TV series "Lie to me", I tend to read and evaluate every little signal people sends out. The fact I don't understand their meaning, yet still I try to figure it out, makes my conclusions extreme. Experience have told me the safe bet is going with negative but that gives a rather dark and pessimistic world. Not taking it serious on the other hand often leads me into naive blind choices.
I don't read their signals, body language, in fact peoples body language most often confuses me, and people trying to read mine are often more confused than I, as all I ever really say is the words I use, to which I'm very very aware.
This makes me insecure, I don't know how to handle people. I don't have a natural flow of what to do when interacting with people. Quite often makes people interacting with me insecure also, as I take little interest in what is used for smalltalk.
In the end it's not something I'll ever get rid of, I'll always a tad weird, but I'll never stop trying to understand how it all works, be that for the better or worse, I don't care anymore. I'm here for the journey.
At first i figured I'd just throw her a comment, but the more I started thinking about what to put in writing, and reading the other comments. The less I wanted to add directly to it.
If you're fine with Danish: Linky, otherwise try the translator.
So being insecure, doubting ones worth. Does that sound familiar to you personally?
It's a fact that most people feel insecure once in a while, trouble is when you feel insecure all the time.
We're a few people that tick this way, quite a few actually. When someone tells me that I'm good at something, my mental process kicks in trying to figure out what the frag I'm done so wrong the other guy feels shamed to point it out, and needs to find something random to divert attention from whatever I've done.
Growing up being told your stupid, when you're not. Being told you're ugly when you're not, and so on.
A bit back i saw a YouTube link to a video of a little girl telling the camera how she was worth nothing and the like. I didn't watch the movie myself, once I via the comments saw what it was, I didn't need to. I've lived that life. I AM the most stupid person on the planet, I AM not most annoying person that ever lived.
I know this as I know breathing under water is difficult at least. (under special conditions that statement is false).
Much like the TV series "Lie to me", I tend to read and evaluate every little signal people sends out. The fact I don't understand their meaning, yet still I try to figure it out, makes my conclusions extreme. Experience have told me the safe bet is going with negative but that gives a rather dark and pessimistic world. Not taking it serious on the other hand often leads me into naive blind choices.
I don't read their signals, body language, in fact peoples body language most often confuses me, and people trying to read mine are often more confused than I, as all I ever really say is the words I use, to which I'm very very aware.
This makes me insecure, I don't know how to handle people. I don't have a natural flow of what to do when interacting with people. Quite often makes people interacting with me insecure also, as I take little interest in what is used for smalltalk.
In the end it's not something I'll ever get rid of, I'll always a tad weird, but I'll never stop trying to understand how it all works, be that for the better or worse, I don't care anymore. I'm here for the journey.
Thursday, August 22, 2013
What to do?
So yesterday I spend the evening finalizing the TV show Lexx and I now have that in my backage. I could have done without it, and invested the time more wisely but it's a classic and thus I felt a need to experience it.
During the evening my host and I went on taking about gaming in general. We tend to share ideas when it comes to what's good and what's not, and age plays and important role, as we're both old enough to know the classics.
A bit back I explained how I've got this huge backlog of classics that I want to "complete". For those of you not playing computergames the concept is still easy to grasp: When I start a Title I intent to fully explorer and immerse myself into the package. As an example Diablo which I've given up on and replaced with Diablo 2. I need to run through the campaign on hell I guess, atleast on easy and see the full story before I can put it aside. It's something about ePeens. That's also why I like Steam for instance as you accumulate "trophies" for doing certain stuff.
The very nature of steam is infact poisonous to my approach on life. An example would be Popcaps Plants vs. Zombies, a funny and entertaining little game with loads of humor. It's simple and you quickly get bored of it. Then they introduce achivements, like Grow the Tree of Life, and suddenly there's a goal to it and I have to do it, as I have a problem witht he less then 100% completion.
I do encounter achivements that I simply just discard and from the start know I can't do and therefore accept them as uncompletable (without cheating). Most of these are Multiplay achivements like get 1000 wins ect. and frankly I'm that good. I'm not bad, but I'm really only good in the small pond.
Easy, I know I'm lossing track, but not quite...
Rigth those knowing me would recognize my facination and stubborn vigilance towards the game Eve-Online. I rarely discuess it as most people playing it have a very diffrent and more hostile approach to the system. And few understand why I skilltrain the way I do.
For those not familiar with Eve's skilltraining, it's based on real time, you set a skill to train and it will keep training untill it's done whether you're logged into the game or not, so age matters. And thusly patience becomes important. A fully trained skillset would escalate to 23 years of constant training soo.
I know: get to the point.. I'm close, be patient.
During our talks yesterday we went over various MMO's and games in general and why we both feel Eve is failing, and the fact that we both were looking for other stuff. Personally I've created an Planet Calypso account, and I kinda like that games for it's 2nd. Life approach. Also we went over Star citizen, which from my perspective looks very interresting, yet what drags me to the flame is what draged me to Eve. I've already invested loads of time in Eve, it would be stupid to reset and start over.
Here's the punchline:
I'm already going about blogging in a diary form about Eve-Online (I know I've been silent since i started mining). Thinking about the torrents of information of games already out there, should I rebuild the Maxx Loproc blog into a more general games oriented gaming blog?
Would YOU get anything from reading my experiences and achievements in various games?
It would seem i've already made up my mind, so rather what would you preffer published there?
What would make you return?
Would you help in building it?
During the evening my host and I went on taking about gaming in general. We tend to share ideas when it comes to what's good and what's not, and age plays and important role, as we're both old enough to know the classics.
A bit back I explained how I've got this huge backlog of classics that I want to "complete". For those of you not playing computergames the concept is still easy to grasp: When I start a Title I intent to fully explorer and immerse myself into the package. As an example Diablo which I've given up on and replaced with Diablo 2. I need to run through the campaign on hell I guess, atleast on easy and see the full story before I can put it aside. It's something about ePeens. That's also why I like Steam for instance as you accumulate "trophies" for doing certain stuff.
The very nature of steam is infact poisonous to my approach on life. An example would be Popcaps Plants vs. Zombies, a funny and entertaining little game with loads of humor. It's simple and you quickly get bored of it. Then they introduce achivements, like Grow the Tree of Life, and suddenly there's a goal to it and I have to do it, as I have a problem witht he less then 100% completion.
I do encounter achivements that I simply just discard and from the start know I can't do and therefore accept them as uncompletable (without cheating). Most of these are Multiplay achivements like get 1000 wins ect. and frankly I'm that good. I'm not bad, but I'm really only good in the small pond.
Easy, I know I'm lossing track, but not quite...
Rigth those knowing me would recognize my facination and stubborn vigilance towards the game Eve-Online. I rarely discuess it as most people playing it have a very diffrent and more hostile approach to the system. And few understand why I skilltrain the way I do.
For those not familiar with Eve's skilltraining, it's based on real time, you set a skill to train and it will keep training untill it's done whether you're logged into the game or not, so age matters. And thusly patience becomes important. A fully trained skillset would escalate to 23 years of constant training soo.
I know: get to the point.. I'm close, be patient.
During our talks yesterday we went over various MMO's and games in general and why we both feel Eve is failing, and the fact that we both were looking for other stuff. Personally I've created an Planet Calypso account, and I kinda like that games for it's 2nd. Life approach. Also we went over Star citizen, which from my perspective looks very interresting, yet what drags me to the flame is what draged me to Eve. I've already invested loads of time in Eve, it would be stupid to reset and start over.
Here's the punchline:
I'm already going about blogging in a diary form about Eve-Online (I know I've been silent since i started mining). Thinking about the torrents of information of games already out there, should I rebuild the Maxx Loproc blog into a more general games oriented gaming blog?
Would YOU get anything from reading my experiences and achievements in various games?
It would seem i've already made up my mind, so rather what would you preffer published there?
What would make you return?
Would you help in building it?
Monday, August 19, 2013
The willpower to succeed.
So I've kinda had a rather hectic week as usual.
One of my major issues this week have been the fact I was essentially starting to smoke again.
Don't get me wrong i want to smoke, but not in a continuously habit basis. I'm fine with taking a small pack or so during a party. Trouble is most of this week have been prelude to the parties during the weekend so I've kinda been smoking all week. To put in reference I stopped from one minute to the next some 2 month ago and I was doing fine.
So now I basically started again and I hate it. i makes me dependant on something that I really don't need, yet is plays tricks on my "wants". And after the party I didn't smoke yesterday, so why did I pick up a pack on the way to work?
Have you ever had the "lose/lose" scenario?
No matter how I'd flip it I'd lose today. if I didn't go smoking I'd be a furious hell storm of anger towards everybody, which would effect the quality of the work i need to perform today.
The other option which I picked I'd give in to my urges and smoke even though I don't really want to.
And I hate me self for not having enough willpower to stay the course.
I'll get around to it, but not today.
What I need to do it stand my ground towards my own desires and simply not acquire new smokes, this way I'll run out and without any to restart and refraining from getting new ones, I'll detoxified in a few weeks and I'll be back in routine of not smoking. During this time I'll have to fight my own urges and counter any scheme my mind will play on me. The way to do it is quite simple: Just say NO. It's just so bloody hard to say no to yourself.
For those of you that figures this is unique, consider if you haven't had these battles with yourself before.
Did you fall for your own schemes and deceptions or did you stand your ground long enough to get into a routine, where willpower stops to be the focusing factor?
One of my major issues this week have been the fact I was essentially starting to smoke again.
Don't get me wrong i want to smoke, but not in a continuously habit basis. I'm fine with taking a small pack or so during a party. Trouble is most of this week have been prelude to the parties during the weekend so I've kinda been smoking all week. To put in reference I stopped from one minute to the next some 2 month ago and I was doing fine.
So now I basically started again and I hate it. i makes me dependant on something that I really don't need, yet is plays tricks on my "wants". And after the party I didn't smoke yesterday, so why did I pick up a pack on the way to work?
Have you ever had the "lose/lose" scenario?
No matter how I'd flip it I'd lose today. if I didn't go smoking I'd be a furious hell storm of anger towards everybody, which would effect the quality of the work i need to perform today.
The other option which I picked I'd give in to my urges and smoke even though I don't really want to.
And I hate me self for not having enough willpower to stay the course.
I'll get around to it, but not today.
What I need to do it stand my ground towards my own desires and simply not acquire new smokes, this way I'll run out and without any to restart and refraining from getting new ones, I'll detoxified in a few weeks and I'll be back in routine of not smoking. During this time I'll have to fight my own urges and counter any scheme my mind will play on me. The way to do it is quite simple: Just say NO. It's just so bloody hard to say no to yourself.
For those of you that figures this is unique, consider if you haven't had these battles with yourself before.
Did you fall for your own schemes and deceptions or did you stand your ground long enough to get into a routine, where willpower stops to be the focusing factor?
Monday, August 5, 2013
It's been awhile.
So it's been quite awhile since I've been writting here.
It's not the first time I run into break when I'm doing this. And you migth ask why did I return now?
I'll run over these one by one, so feel free to skip sections of me you don't align with.
Cryptically as usual, I've written a blog about this whole thing (in danish), I've gotten a good load of sponsored clothings and so on. As said, wrote a blog, go read that for details.
For the summary: During this spring and summer I was challenged to ride a bicycle from Aarhus to Paris which is roughly 1350 kms. That's not something you just do, so I've been training for it riding some 3.000 kms during spring and summer. Most surpricingly I've got some kind of bodyhealth back so now I can actually move arround again and still breathe. I've kinda stopped smoking on a daily basic, and reserve that as party thing in line with drinking. No, I don't drink a bottle of red wine everyday to get a little buzzed.
In my world it's not that big a thing. It's note worthy. It's taken some work. Some sacrifies have been made. I've reached a body state I'm more content with then I've had for 2 decades. I'll need more training to perform even better. As said: It's not a big thing and it's in the past anyhow.
As for those reading the blog... Yep: I managed to provide some purple to the team, fitting in is for the uninspired.
It's not the first time I run into break when I'm doing this. And you migth ask why did I return now?
- Project Cykelklovnen has completed. (4500 kms bike riding done, wrote the blog, got the T-Shirt).
- I therefore started closure of my Facebook account.
- I've aquired way too many old classical PC games.
- I've been invited to a Bloggers meet up.
I'll run over these one by one, so feel free to skip sections of me you don't align with.
1: Project Cykelklovnen has completed. (4.500 kms bike riding done, wrote the blog, got the T-Shirt).
Cryptically as usual, I've written a blog about this whole thing (in danish), I've gotten a good load of sponsored clothings and so on. As said, wrote a blog, go read that for details.
For the summary: During this spring and summer I was challenged to ride a bicycle from Aarhus to Paris which is roughly 1350 kms. That's not something you just do, so I've been training for it riding some 3.000 kms during spring and summer. Most surpricingly I've got some kind of bodyhealth back so now I can actually move arround again and still breathe. I've kinda stopped smoking on a daily basic, and reserve that as party thing in line with drinking. No, I don't drink a bottle of red wine everyday to get a little buzzed.
In my world it's not that big a thing. It's note worthy. It's taken some work. Some sacrifies have been made. I've reached a body state I'm more content with then I've had for 2 decades. I'll need more training to perform even better. As said: It's not a big thing and it's in the past anyhow.
As for those reading the blog... Yep: I managed to provide some purple to the team, fitting in is for the uninspired.
2: I started closure of my Facebook account.
Yep, facebook have been a torn in my eyes for quite awhile now. Last year I gave it some 6 months to shape up or GTFO.
Needless to say facebook didn't shape up, infact they'd gotten way worse. The issue of overwriting you contact information with their data back in february didn't even shock me.
I've been hating all this since I noticed Iphones where tracking your geolocations for the advertizing databases behind your back, and wouldn't admit to it. Here in June facebook was hacked and according to law they had to disclose what information was accessed and exposed... Of course they tried to downplay that they had not legitimite rigth to the information that was hacked, and hide from public what data was exposed.... Of course the hackers then made their data public, and another FB scandal was born.
The great fun in this (not fun as in ha ha) is that very few even noticed. Maybe that was contributed the fact the Facebook share price went up... Thus Wallstreet got paid, nevermind that average joe once again was molsted to a degree he doesn't even understand.
It's all about trust these days. Everything is freely obtainable, there are few or no secrets left for those with resources to aquire them.
And as I've proberbly mentioned before. I use G+ for 1 single reason: It's the only place you tick things off, everywere else you have to remove ticks you don't want. I use G+ because of that mindset.
Let me choose what I want want, not what I don't want to pay...
Basicly: I've just today deleted my facebook account and I'm not going back. Got a couple of gaming accounts I migth use, both to have a look and to do that Facebook gaming.... Maybe... maybe not, what facebook game is really worth my time now I think about it...... Well, I need to have the occational look to maintain the knowledge of where they are. I suppose...
3: I've aquired way too many old classical PC games.
For a while now I've grown tired of my Eve-Online. The crowd have left, the subscribtion fee is takng it's toll, well sure I pay using ingame currency, but it takes me 20-30 hours pr week to gather that. Not smoking grants me real money to simply just pay up, and then why even log in as I don't really have a goal. Well I've got plenty goals, but I'm very much alone in there these days and I haven't had the energy to change that.
Also I've had way many classic games I've never got further with. Plus Good Old Games have had some unfair sales lately. Now I've got Diablo 2, Dawn of War 2, Baldurs gate and stuff, Fallout 1 & 2, Civilization IV, Settlers 2, Neverwinter Night 1 & 2, and the minecraft servers, Don't starve (I know).
For frag sake I need a couple of life times to deal with all that. Some are biblophiles, maybe i've gamophile :)
If anyone have intrest I can workout some more game oriented posts and place them else where, maybe in the project pages, create a new blog and so on. Could be fun, but I'm not going to do it for me, myself and I.
4: I've been invited to a Bloggers meet up.
It's not visible, but I've been on the blogging thing since before it was invented. I'm doing it wrong, sure. And frankly I'm not sure what to make of this blog, nor most of the others.
The Cykelklovnen blog I was somewhat happy with, It could use a loving hand in the design department and so on (all my blogs need that), but it had a clear purpose. the thread I'm frequently accussed of missing. Most often I do have a thread or red line, but it's buried so deep in hidden contextual matter and references only I know (or people that knows me very very well, better then the wife) that nobody notices it.
This blog for instance is mostly some form of diary or journal of my existance, my eveblog os some form of diary or journal of that characters life/exitance. My project blog is some form of diary or journal of that projects life/existance... do we have a common theme here? Cykelklovnen was to provide documentation and exposure of a project (not my project), still it takes the form of a diary or journal. That's becoming rather tedious now. At anyrate I've been invited to attent a bloggers meet up and I intent to join, even got a few I want to inite myself. I've never tried it, but i suspect an exchange of experience and ideas in this field. I have made a bucket of choises to land here. I see other making the same choices, but different answers. one example could be adSense. I don't use it as I don't want to advertise or generate revenue with this. Well i suppose anything is up for discuession, and I don't have the traffic to be interrestig so easy answer for me, harder for others. Another thing that is rather popular in the blogoshere is having the author review something.. Again that's something you won't see here. The idea is you get something and then you write a review. Hmmm, again. I'm being idealistic but if Google gave me a Glass, would I accept it? Would I accept it on terms that I needed to write a review.... Would I accept it on terms that I needed to write a positive review: NO!
Would my review be positive: Most likely.
Would I aquire and review a pair on my own: Sure (if i had the resources).
Well interresting things to flip with participents plus I've got a few to invite myself if they have the time.
5: Now what?
Rigth so breaks over. Now what? I don't have a clear plan, and I don't think I'll write each and every day again. Maybe I should try for that weekly update thing. have an open post I'll be working on all week. post it on Sunday....
PS. The title comes from an audio in my mind, where the words are spoken by Deckard Cain from Diablo, and his voice is very similar to Warrics and reminds me of something Star Trekish, maybe Patrick Stewart Yes some of my text actually have a sound and/or reference. Maybe I should make an effort in fleshing them out once in a while.
Monday, December 24, 2012
Arghhh, it's christmas.
And so it is Christmas.
Yea, for thiose of you that aren't native. in danmark we hold christmas with the pressents and all the food, gatherings and stuff n the 24th. in the evening.
Naturaly the kids are hyped and already had way too much sugar, bored and impatient. But is't that the general norm everywhere. and we've not even ready to get out the door.
Once again I find the situation strange as hell, as to me it's just monday. Sure there's a few things I need to deal with extra. But essentially it's merely monday. Tomorrow will be a form of Feasting day for the whole family and again well, it's just Tueday. Rigth?
Sometimes I wonder why I have such a bleak attitude towards stuff like this. Basicly I don't care. it has little intrest to me. Still if certain things and traditions aren't handled prober I'll get that hollow feeling that something is missing.
Then I start thinking if of my own device or something external.
If it was internal, why would I feel bleak once the days have past. and if it's external why am I affected.
Yea, it's short one, not too cherry. But don't let that get to you. Afterall it is christmas and there's a smile on everyone (not fighting). And you'll not go missing the spirit here. Afterall fake it till you make it. First of people don't really care, second have their own stuff on their minds.
Merry Christmas.
Yea, for thiose of you that aren't native. in danmark we hold christmas with the pressents and all the food, gatherings and stuff n the 24th. in the evening.
Naturaly the kids are hyped and already had way too much sugar, bored and impatient. But is't that the general norm everywhere. and we've not even ready to get out the door.
Once again I find the situation strange as hell, as to me it's just monday. Sure there's a few things I need to deal with extra. But essentially it's merely monday. Tomorrow will be a form of Feasting day for the whole family and again well, it's just Tueday. Rigth?
Sometimes I wonder why I have such a bleak attitude towards stuff like this. Basicly I don't care. it has little intrest to me. Still if certain things and traditions aren't handled prober I'll get that hollow feeling that something is missing.
Then I start thinking if of my own device or something external.
If it was internal, why would I feel bleak once the days have past. and if it's external why am I affected.
Yea, it's short one, not too cherry. But don't let that get to you. Afterall it is christmas and there's a smile on everyone (not fighting). And you'll not go missing the spirit here. Afterall fake it till you make it. First of people don't really care, second have their own stuff on their minds.
Merry Christmas.
Friday, December 21, 2012
The End?
Why not pick up on last post.
Today being the end of the world. A hot topic is what will you be doing if the world would come to an end tonigth.
Well, personally I'd be doing what I'm already doing. The show must go on and you'll never know how effective the apocalypse will be. Well, once you know it doesn't quite matter now does it.
What i do find amussing is how affected people in general are. From the loonies that builddoomsday bunkers to the loonies spending all their asserts as it won't matter. To the cynics that shakes their heads as a response to the loonies. But more so the public reaction to it.
Appearntly the morningshow have consisted 90% of this. I've noticed the FB and G+ streams to contians quite a bit of this (mostly comics and funny pics). But for some reason everyone around me seems to take it with some uuuh big thing....
Maybe I'm essentially a cynic myself as I really don't care (got better things to do), or maybe it's one of those how's the weather thing. Surely i find a few of the funny pictures hilarious, at the same level as #caturnday.
Well though of the day. Now I think I'll better get back to the things I really want to finish off ASAP, like writing that mail I've been postponing for 4 days.
Incase I'm wrong and we'll have an apocalyse later on, Best of luck. May the randomness protect you all.
Today being the end of the world. A hot topic is what will you be doing if the world would come to an end tonigth.
Well, personally I'd be doing what I'm already doing. The show must go on and you'll never know how effective the apocalypse will be. Well, once you know it doesn't quite matter now does it.
What i do find amussing is how affected people in general are. From the loonies that builddoomsday bunkers to the loonies spending all their asserts as it won't matter. To the cynics that shakes their heads as a response to the loonies. But more so the public reaction to it.
Appearntly the morningshow have consisted 90% of this. I've noticed the FB and G+ streams to contians quite a bit of this (mostly comics and funny pics). But for some reason everyone around me seems to take it with some uuuh big thing....
Maybe I'm essentially a cynic myself as I really don't care (got better things to do), or maybe it's one of those how's the weather thing. Surely i find a few of the funny pictures hilarious, at the same level as #caturnday.
Well though of the day. Now I think I'll better get back to the things I really want to finish off ASAP, like writing that mail I've been postponing for 4 days.
Incase I'm wrong and we'll have an apocalyse later on, Best of luck. May the randomness protect you all.
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
Ramblings of the day.
So, I best not fall back here. So keeping it up.
Don't have much to put in words today.
Been trying to get at #ingress for a while and was prepared to wait until open Beta. but it seems I got lucky, so I'm one of the few invited. And that is something special. I notice loads of people been waiting a month for this, Putting in work hours, like suggesting portals, creating artwork, solving riddles or try to solve them. But alas they are cheated.
I must admit I haven't been shy to vent my frustration over my inability to solve the riddles or even get any headway with them, even if almost presented with the solution. And as a countermeasure I'd been pulling of something that is called a bruteforce attack.
Those of you that don't know what Ingress or Bruteforceattack is:
Ingress is a game google launched November 15th. and it's essentially about capturing/saving the world. It's a game that takes place in the real world, so if you see someone standing close to a cultural monument of sorts, and fiddling with their phone. there's a good chance it's ingress. Try asking them some can be funny.
Bruteforce attack is essentially testing for a pass code.
Say you have a password that is a letter. For me to guess it I would be pretty sure to get it if testing 25 different letters. Just starting with a, b, c.....
Ingress invitation codes are 8 letters, so bruteforcing that would mean I'd test AAAAAAAA, then AAAAAAAB....AAAAAABA, AAAAAABB etc etc. Eventually I'm supposed to hit a correct combination and I'm fairly good at doing a manual task like that until completion.
Maybe people realized that once I'd succeed, I would effectively steal a code from someone else. So giving me a code directly might have been a preventive measure. But I don't really care, I'm in.
Still it puts my hard natured morale compass at work. I know it's not fair for someone. But is it globally fair. The goals justifies the means?
How far should one be willing to damage someone else in order to attain their goals? When does it become unacceptable. What line needs to be cross before it's simply no longer okay to abuse intimate knowledge of the system?
Don't have much to put in words today.
Been trying to get at #ingress for a while and was prepared to wait until open Beta. but it seems I got lucky, so I'm one of the few invited. And that is something special. I notice loads of people been waiting a month for this, Putting in work hours, like suggesting portals, creating artwork, solving riddles or try to solve them. But alas they are cheated.
I must admit I haven't been shy to vent my frustration over my inability to solve the riddles or even get any headway with them, even if almost presented with the solution. And as a countermeasure I'd been pulling of something that is called a bruteforce attack.
Those of you that don't know what Ingress or Bruteforceattack is:
Ingress is a game google launched November 15th. and it's essentially about capturing/saving the world. It's a game that takes place in the real world, so if you see someone standing close to a cultural monument of sorts, and fiddling with their phone. there's a good chance it's ingress. Try asking them some can be funny.
Bruteforce attack is essentially testing for a pass code.
Say you have a password that is a letter. For me to guess it I would be pretty sure to get it if testing 25 different letters. Just starting with a, b, c.....
Ingress invitation codes are 8 letters, so bruteforcing that would mean I'd test AAAAAAAA, then AAAAAAAB....AAAAAABA, AAAAAABB etc etc. Eventually I'm supposed to hit a correct combination and I'm fairly good at doing a manual task like that until completion.
Maybe people realized that once I'd succeed, I would effectively steal a code from someone else. So giving me a code directly might have been a preventive measure. But I don't really care, I'm in.
Still it puts my hard natured morale compass at work. I know it's not fair for someone. But is it globally fair. The goals justifies the means?
How far should one be willing to damage someone else in order to attain their goals? When does it become unacceptable. What line needs to be cross before it's simply no longer okay to abuse intimate knowledge of the system?
Monday, December 17, 2012
Meeting demands
Hmmm, it seems like that didn't went all to well with the daily updates. I guess I need a bit of time to prepare for "off hours". Even though I'm mostly infront of a computer, I don't always have the time or attention to actually put words togther in a meaningfull manner. Tangable then...
One of the reasons are well kids. Having 3 of them tends to drag me away from everything else loads of the time. another reason is #ingress.
Yea, laugh. But the games seems fun like Turf, and I'm gonna play it when I get in. (Currently seems like i need to bruteforce hack my way into the game, manually).
Third somethings things are happening outside in the real world. places that don't rely on networks ;) These are setting need my attention from time to time.
Trying to do everything all the time often puts me in a form of stress. I'm told that's harmfull, and 2-4 hours of daily sleep isn't enough. But with all the things going on everywhere. How can you sleep. Guess my curious nature will be my ruin some day. Then again it's what's keeping me alive.
I have tried pretty much everything I want to try. I've done everything I wanted to do. I've seen pretty much everything worth seeing.
I'm essentially done... And happy about it. I've completed my tasks for this lifetime.
People around me knowing me and knowing how I deal with stuff, are perplexed as I have a rather mellow reaction to everything. And they don't understand why. The basic reason is that it's nothing new really, if you start boiling it down. The problem you're facing isn't really unique. Some idevidual parameters are unique, but the overall problem and solution is seen before and loads of people could fix it. So if I as the sole "fixer" on the problem should oor would be eliminated, I can be easy replaced, well maybe not easy. Also if I'm elimitated and you can't continue without me, I can't help you anymore. And you will be responsible for drawing apon the teachings I have bestowed on you. Like it or not. End of Line, it's not my problem anymore.
So why keep breathing?
I'm currious of what will happen next. How will things unfold? Will my predictions hold true?
The result is that I'm essentially fearless. As i have nothing to fear. There's nothing that can truely hurt me. Only the things I deside should have the power to cause me harm. And then it becomes something else...
See now I want to put in a motivational quote of the day. I have a few, but won't bother looking for them. maybe tomorrow.
One of the reasons are well kids. Having 3 of them tends to drag me away from everything else loads of the time. another reason is #ingress.
Yea, laugh. But the games seems fun like Turf, and I'm gonna play it when I get in. (Currently seems like i need to bruteforce hack my way into the game, manually).
Third somethings things are happening outside in the real world. places that don't rely on networks ;) These are setting need my attention from time to time.
Trying to do everything all the time often puts me in a form of stress. I'm told that's harmfull, and 2-4 hours of daily sleep isn't enough. But with all the things going on everywhere. How can you sleep. Guess my curious nature will be my ruin some day. Then again it's what's keeping me alive.
I have tried pretty much everything I want to try. I've done everything I wanted to do. I've seen pretty much everything worth seeing.
I'm essentially done... And happy about it. I've completed my tasks for this lifetime.
People around me knowing me and knowing how I deal with stuff, are perplexed as I have a rather mellow reaction to everything. And they don't understand why. The basic reason is that it's nothing new really, if you start boiling it down. The problem you're facing isn't really unique. Some idevidual parameters are unique, but the overall problem and solution is seen before and loads of people could fix it. So if I as the sole "fixer" on the problem should oor would be eliminated, I can be easy replaced, well maybe not easy. Also if I'm elimitated and you can't continue without me, I can't help you anymore. And you will be responsible for drawing apon the teachings I have bestowed on you. Like it or not. End of Line, it's not my problem anymore.
So why keep breathing?
I'm currious of what will happen next. How will things unfold? Will my predictions hold true?
The result is that I'm essentially fearless. As i have nothing to fear. There's nothing that can truely hurt me. Only the things I deside should have the power to cause me harm. And then it becomes something else...
See now I want to put in a motivational quote of the day. I have a few, but won't bother looking for them. maybe tomorrow.
Thursday, December 13, 2012
Post redesign
So I've remodeled the blog somewhat, split things into categories of interest. That should make it more easy to actually land here painlessly:)
As you might notice I don't use pictures and other fancy flashy elements. I use text, and loads of it.
I'll try and keep it down in the future.
Another thing is I tend to poke things that are bugging my mind. Some of these things have been circling in my head for quite a while before I share it with anyone. That makes a lot if my stuff heavy.
I'll try to not dig too deep, but that removes my urge to put anything in text as it's already too light and so on.
Therefore use the comments please, use mail if you don't like being public. I believe I have opened so people can post anonymously, I hate that word. But I understand that sometimes it's prudent not to flash your ID badge when opening your mouth. We all do things we'd rather not, yet don't have the privilege to actually take the battle that comes with disagreement of the establishment.
Also I'll see if i can't get into me more scheduled release plan.
I figure for my project blog and The Eve world a Weekly release is do able, while I might wanna try to get a daily post on the Rambling page. At any rate feel free to comment, I have next to no comments or readers for that matter. I expect that to change over time as long as I simply keep up the consistent posting. So throw me a line, maybe I can improve something and we all like improvements :)
Another thing I'll learn here is to use the saved post system. Which will be a rather interesting experience.
If you didn't know how I write these, and why they are this messy. It's because what i write here is most often from brain to net. I start out having a thread, a point and a context. During my writing I could easily change my mind 2 or 3 times, as the slow speed of typing puts things in a different perspective. Same thing when you have to explain something so humans have a snowballs chance in hell to figure out what I'm saying...
See I'm even doing it right now.
Prober editorial principles would now dictate me to rewrite half of this. Not going to happen.
I've tried it. The result was catastrophically bleak.
What I do seem to have learned is that, now I have some 5 more walls of texts as the one above here, detailing and spinning and going deeper, explaining more and more.
You people don't want me to do that really. You want to tick this post off as "have been read".
I'll try to respect it, and I seem like I need a ending keyword? hmmm. Cool:
As you might notice I don't use pictures and other fancy flashy elements. I use text, and loads of it.
I'll try and keep it down in the future.
Another thing is I tend to poke things that are bugging my mind. Some of these things have been circling in my head for quite a while before I share it with anyone. That makes a lot if my stuff heavy.
I'll try to not dig too deep, but that removes my urge to put anything in text as it's already too light and so on.
Therefore use the comments please, use mail if you don't like being public. I believe I have opened so people can post anonymously, I hate that word. But I understand that sometimes it's prudent not to flash your ID badge when opening your mouth. We all do things we'd rather not, yet don't have the privilege to actually take the battle that comes with disagreement of the establishment.
Also I'll see if i can't get into me more scheduled release plan.
I figure for my project blog and The Eve world a Weekly release is do able, while I might wanna try to get a daily post on the Rambling page. At any rate feel free to comment, I have next to no comments or readers for that matter. I expect that to change over time as long as I simply keep up the consistent posting. So throw me a line, maybe I can improve something and we all like improvements :)
Another thing I'll learn here is to use the saved post system. Which will be a rather interesting experience.
If you didn't know how I write these, and why they are this messy. It's because what i write here is most often from brain to net. I start out having a thread, a point and a context. During my writing I could easily change my mind 2 or 3 times, as the slow speed of typing puts things in a different perspective. Same thing when you have to explain something so humans have a snowballs chance in hell to figure out what I'm saying...
See I'm even doing it right now.
Prober editorial principles would now dictate me to rewrite half of this. Not going to happen.
I've tried it. The result was catastrophically bleak.
What I do seem to have learned is that, now I have some 5 more walls of texts as the one above here, detailing and spinning and going deeper, explaining more and more.
You people don't want me to do that really. You want to tick this post off as "have been read".
I'll try to respect it, and I seem like I need a ending keyword? hmmm. Cool:
- Daily posts incoming.
- This is all rambling, Eve and projects have moved.
- Lighter more reader friendly posts
- Commentary is needed for improvement, give me input.
- five point lists are 2 points too many :)
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
Forgive and forget?
Once more it has been a while. And this time i guess i bring about one of the heavies.
First I feel a need to point out that I'm not in any way religious, yet I am a very spiritual person.
I came across this Love and forgiveness as tools of personal growth while catching up on my stream, and the title stirred something so i started reading. My first realization is that now I know what people mean when they tell me I throw to many words at them without pause :)
To sum up what I get from it:
First off I had to set aside that it wasn't written with people like me in mind. And that most people are not like me. From there I can raise my mind above it all and look for the good parts that I'd like to pass on to others in search of decent living principles.
Keep in mind there's no "Way of life", each individual perceives the world through a filter that in composed of a multitude of things that have different influence by each individual. Any proficient psychologist would or should know that. Yet it is often a forgotten fact. Maybe you like red meat while I like mine medium done, and both ways are EQUALLY fine.. As there is no set path in life, and tastes are different.
Not too long ago I was presented to a likewise spiritual person from a completely different culture then my own European upbringing. and I believe the first philosophical challenge I presented was why she should be the judge of what is good and bad?
It's a common misunderstanding that if you mean well your actions are benevolent (good in nature). Trouble arises when you start to judge what other should perceive as well being. A classic is the one of helping out...
That is not always the benevolent path as helping might prevent the individual being helped from evolving into to a stronger person.
I figured an old Buddhism story about giving moneys to beggars were in fact seen as a "bad" karma thing, where most other cultures would see it as a "good karma" thing. (Yes, I know that there is nothing such as "good karma" and that all karma is bad, but that is something for time to discuss).
That was somewhat of a sidetrack which I don't think I closed prober, but we can do that some other time. Main point here and the line I'm walking is good and bad is always down to individuals. Besides Cirelda wrote a nice blog that doesn't deserve to be thrown into religious discussions.
Rather I want to point out my disagreements in general (noted in the bullet point):
Your life is set by the age of 6......
I disagree. Somewhat. As she points out herself, once you the an age where you're supposed to be a responsible adult person. You have the responsibility to seek assistance to handle the scars of your soul. Aligning your moral compass, choose your path in life, define your tastes.
And that is really a very important thing. Unless you unquestionably believe in fate in a way they you disregard any and all responsibility. Your first responsibility in this life of yours should be to make the choices you ultimately agree the most with. These don't always show as clearly as you expect. For instance it's a choose to pay the rent. Paying the rent will have the effect that you most likely have a roof over your head until next time the rent is due, likewise you could choose differently and NOT pay the rent which will ultimately have the effect you don't have the roof over you head. Of course there's other effects like if you didn't pay the rent, you most likely have that money to spend for something else, say food?
You always have a choice, whether you like it or not. Either accept this or accept that it is "fate".
And as you have a choice you have the power to do differently. Predictable or not, you ultimately had responsibility and made a choice.
Parents are especially responsible for their children's mindset.
Actually i agree here.
Children will always look to their parents for guidance, and it is our most holy task to provide them the best guidance we can. Again loads of factors are applied here. One of the heaviest factor is most often the parents own upbringing and their reactions to this.
For instance if someone is taught that you should play dead if attacked by a bear. Unless experience, education or some other outside effect have an impact on that persons perspective of bears, this is off course what that person will teach their own children. ( I have no clue what so ever to do if you encounter an angry bear, but I don't think I'll try reasoning with it....)
Setting the correct path makes most thing peachy.
I've already touched on this. What you as a person yourself might have value in considering is who are the judges of "correct". And do you even like peaches?
Once you start getting a hold of that, start considering the merits of these judges....
Another thing a lot of people most often fail to realize is that there is no person that is enherrently evil/bad. No matter how malicious actions are concieved and performed, there is always at some level a desire for betterment someone. Trouble is when people don't quite agree what is good and bad, like commiting genocide. Good or bad? well depends on perspective really, still trust me those doing it REALLY believe they are doing a good thing, the greater good maybe even. Remember the German soldiers in WW2. Their belts was inscribed with something along the lines of Gods army. And I don't have the merits to be a judge of that.
Forgiveness is a very strong tool.
As the title say forgive and forget. I have children starting school and the default thing most children need to learn is to say I'm sorry........
It's one of my parental challenges to have they learn the diffrence between saying "I'm sorry" and to "be sorry". Most would tell me how wrong I am in this. But i actually take offence to indoctrination. And i believe strongly in truth. Always tell the truth, and only say things that you mean.
So when my children are schooled to blindly say: Forgive me, I'm sorry. Without understanding what they are doing I'm offended.
Sure, on the other end there's another child that is sad because they have just been hurt. This victim migth be apeaced somewhat by being told the harm was unintentionally.
Untill the children realize it was intented.... That they have been lied to.... That they are expected to lie them self quite often even..... (they have to repeat the process of telling: I'm sorry. Plenty times before it becomes a natural response)...
Same thing with forgiveness... I often notice people by default expect forgiveness if they merely ask it.
When i'm encoutering people asking me to forgive them, I usually get rather aggressive, and start digging them why I should forgive them. And that tends to scare people off.
I don't mind forgiving, and I doing quite often and fast. The people I forgive have no value knowing wether they are forgiven or not. I forgive and forget to apeace MY mind and life. Not theirs.
On the other hand some things I don't just forgive, less forget. Often I take a very long time forgiving my self :) And with that knowledge in hand an to round of everything:
When forgiving, and who are you forgiving, and why? Once understood it's lot easier to also forget which is needed inorder to truely forgive, rather then just saying the words without meaning.
First I feel a need to point out that I'm not in any way religious, yet I am a very spiritual person.
I came across this Love and forgiveness as tools of personal growth while catching up on my stream, and the title stirred something so i started reading. My first realization is that now I know what people mean when they tell me I throw to many words at them without pause :)
To sum up what I get from it:
- You life is basically set at the age of 6.
- Parents are especially responsible for their childrens mindset.
- Setting the correct path makes most thing peachy.
- Forgiveness is a very strong tool.
First off I had to set aside that it wasn't written with people like me in mind. And that most people are not like me. From there I can raise my mind above it all and look for the good parts that I'd like to pass on to others in search of decent living principles.
Keep in mind there's no "Way of life", each individual perceives the world through a filter that in composed of a multitude of things that have different influence by each individual. Any proficient psychologist would or should know that. Yet it is often a forgotten fact. Maybe you like red meat while I like mine medium done, and both ways are EQUALLY fine.. As there is no set path in life, and tastes are different.
Not too long ago I was presented to a likewise spiritual person from a completely different culture then my own European upbringing. and I believe the first philosophical challenge I presented was why she should be the judge of what is good and bad?
It's a common misunderstanding that if you mean well your actions are benevolent (good in nature). Trouble arises when you start to judge what other should perceive as well being. A classic is the one of helping out...
That is not always the benevolent path as helping might prevent the individual being helped from evolving into to a stronger person.
I figured an old Buddhism story about giving moneys to beggars were in fact seen as a "bad" karma thing, where most other cultures would see it as a "good karma" thing. (Yes, I know that there is nothing such as "good karma" and that all karma is bad, but that is something for time to discuss).
That was somewhat of a sidetrack which I don't think I closed prober, but we can do that some other time. Main point here and the line I'm walking is good and bad is always down to individuals. Besides Cirelda wrote a nice blog that doesn't deserve to be thrown into religious discussions.
Rather I want to point out my disagreements in general (noted in the bullet point):
Your life is set by the age of 6......
I disagree. Somewhat. As she points out herself, once you the an age where you're supposed to be a responsible adult person. You have the responsibility to seek assistance to handle the scars of your soul. Aligning your moral compass, choose your path in life, define your tastes.
And that is really a very important thing. Unless you unquestionably believe in fate in a way they you disregard any and all responsibility. Your first responsibility in this life of yours should be to make the choices you ultimately agree the most with. These don't always show as clearly as you expect. For instance it's a choose to pay the rent. Paying the rent will have the effect that you most likely have a roof over your head until next time the rent is due, likewise you could choose differently and NOT pay the rent which will ultimately have the effect you don't have the roof over you head. Of course there's other effects like if you didn't pay the rent, you most likely have that money to spend for something else, say food?
You always have a choice, whether you like it or not. Either accept this or accept that it is "fate".
And as you have a choice you have the power to do differently. Predictable or not, you ultimately had responsibility and made a choice.
Parents are especially responsible for their children's mindset.
Actually i agree here.
Children will always look to their parents for guidance, and it is our most holy task to provide them the best guidance we can. Again loads of factors are applied here. One of the heaviest factor is most often the parents own upbringing and their reactions to this.
For instance if someone is taught that you should play dead if attacked by a bear. Unless experience, education or some other outside effect have an impact on that persons perspective of bears, this is off course what that person will teach their own children. ( I have no clue what so ever to do if you encounter an angry bear, but I don't think I'll try reasoning with it....)
Setting the correct path makes most thing peachy.
I've already touched on this. What you as a person yourself might have value in considering is who are the judges of "correct". And do you even like peaches?
Once you start getting a hold of that, start considering the merits of these judges....
Another thing a lot of people most often fail to realize is that there is no person that is enherrently evil/bad. No matter how malicious actions are concieved and performed, there is always at some level a desire for betterment someone. Trouble is when people don't quite agree what is good and bad, like commiting genocide. Good or bad? well depends on perspective really, still trust me those doing it REALLY believe they are doing a good thing, the greater good maybe even. Remember the German soldiers in WW2. Their belts was inscribed with something along the lines of Gods army. And I don't have the merits to be a judge of that.
Forgiveness is a very strong tool.
As the title say forgive and forget. I have children starting school and the default thing most children need to learn is to say I'm sorry........
It's one of my parental challenges to have they learn the diffrence between saying "I'm sorry" and to "be sorry". Most would tell me how wrong I am in this. But i actually take offence to indoctrination. And i believe strongly in truth. Always tell the truth, and only say things that you mean.
So when my children are schooled to blindly say: Forgive me, I'm sorry. Without understanding what they are doing I'm offended.
Sure, on the other end there's another child that is sad because they have just been hurt. This victim migth be apeaced somewhat by being told the harm was unintentionally.
Untill the children realize it was intented.... That they have been lied to.... That they are expected to lie them self quite often even..... (they have to repeat the process of telling: I'm sorry. Plenty times before it becomes a natural response)...
Same thing with forgiveness... I often notice people by default expect forgiveness if they merely ask it.
When i'm encoutering people asking me to forgive them, I usually get rather aggressive, and start digging them why I should forgive them. And that tends to scare people off.
I don't mind forgiving, and I doing quite often and fast. The people I forgive have no value knowing wether they are forgiven or not. I forgive and forget to apeace MY mind and life. Not theirs.
On the other hand some things I don't just forgive, less forget. Often I take a very long time forgiving my self :) And with that knowledge in hand an to round of everything:
When forgiving, and who are you forgiving, and why? Once understood it's lot easier to also forget which is needed inorder to truely forgive, rather then just saying the words without meaning.
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
Vacation time...
Welcome back there.
Rarely do I ever leave further then I can connect and keep updated at least on a daily basis. And with the current information flow a good deal of time is spend this way.
For instance, scanning Facebook news feed chronologically to see if anything important happened there in the past 24 hours usually takes 20 minutes or so, assuming there's nothing that really needs my grander attention.
Google+ is usually the same, yet with the few contact I have there I have to turn the stream down as much of the information in periods tend to be fairly time consuming.
Blogs, not a big deal on average 2 Blogs are published pr. day from my entire collection. Again in periods everyone publish at the same time, giving hunchbacks. Still not the bigger issue when i spend the some 30-45 minutes devoting attention to actually reading it and interact where appropriate.
My lofty goal of at least a blog publish every second day, seems to have dwindled. One reason is the lack of interaction, lack of followers essentially. With only 2-3 people reading or seeing a post on average, i don't feel that huge a commitment to stay committed, and my time is spend elsewhere doing other things rather then writing up new posts here. Of course that brings the Maxx Loproc project blog to a crawl, but nothing much goes on there anyway.
Now I've been on the family choice of vacation:
Summer cabin with nice fireplace (average temps 10-15C daytime, 5-10C nighttime), No TV, No computers, No Telephone. If it doesn't run on "brainpower" it's banned...
Brainpower is a house term we use for activities that aren't run on electrical power, and is often used as a child punishment. There's little point in giving the kids house arrests, when they never leave the house, Not try a "brainpower day" where all entertainment is powered by your own imagination.... See first off it teaches them imagination.
Sorry, got sidetracked there.
Anyhow, spending the last week on vacation meaning no connectivity to anything that wasn't run on a piece of paper is a pleasant calm time. And I enjoy it as much as the kids enjoy my full and utter attention.
It's when I get back to the Internet it gets funny, since people suddenly find me available again. For the past 48 hours I've been clammed down at work. Not able to go in to much details here, but basically basic issues have showed them self, and been waiting for my return rather then just going through the workpipe. Basically the week I've been on vacation I've just not been doing the work and therefore it's waiting for me to do now, and currently I'm not shall we say having much spare time during the short work hours. I hope most people familiar with me would know that this results in me just running a bit faster, as I haven't broken yet I seem able to run faster.
Sometimes I get amused of considering what will happen when I finally crack, whether that be tomorrow or next century, it'll happen sooner or later, and I doubt the world will be fixed before then sooo...
Same goes with all these Internet things:
This blog, Facebook, G+, other peoples blogs....
Now you might wonder: Why doesn't i just cut the crap then. How important is Facebook really...
In truth not much which can be seen on the time consumption I have with it. 30-45 minutes to run it through and interact with the most important from these past 11 days offline.
It's roughly the time I'll spend authoring this post.
What i get out of it? Well currently I'm merely updated as to who's doing something different then usual. The most recent E scams running, the heads up news on peoples heads. (haven't followed the news, so can't say which important issues are currently active).
Sure I could cut it, but it's unlikely i will as the trade off is okay and I need to remain FB active a while longer.
G+?
Well going through G+ took me less then 10 minutes. Why?
I don't need to pick up why the Apple Mini sucks or sucks not. I don't need to digest the images that are in the stream. So basically I can skip everything, as long as I don't get involved in anything. Easy...
Reading Blogs.... This I started already back Sunday, and I've spend an hour or 3 doing so already, but I still have the 5-10 hour backlog now. Why do it?
Because i care.
Now you might know why I'm reluctant to hold vacations. But what's your take on taking vacations?
Bring some feedback. Let's bring some life here.
Rarely do I ever leave further then I can connect and keep updated at least on a daily basis. And with the current information flow a good deal of time is spend this way.
For instance, scanning Facebook news feed chronologically to see if anything important happened there in the past 24 hours usually takes 20 minutes or so, assuming there's nothing that really needs my grander attention.
Google+ is usually the same, yet with the few contact I have there I have to turn the stream down as much of the information in periods tend to be fairly time consuming.
Blogs, not a big deal on average 2 Blogs are published pr. day from my entire collection. Again in periods everyone publish at the same time, giving hunchbacks. Still not the bigger issue when i spend the some 30-45 minutes devoting attention to actually reading it and interact where appropriate.
My lofty goal of at least a blog publish every second day, seems to have dwindled. One reason is the lack of interaction, lack of followers essentially. With only 2-3 people reading or seeing a post on average, i don't feel that huge a commitment to stay committed, and my time is spend elsewhere doing other things rather then writing up new posts here. Of course that brings the Maxx Loproc project blog to a crawl, but nothing much goes on there anyway.
Now I've been on the family choice of vacation:
Summer cabin with nice fireplace (average temps 10-15C daytime, 5-10C nighttime), No TV, No computers, No Telephone. If it doesn't run on "brainpower" it's banned...
Brainpower is a house term we use for activities that aren't run on electrical power, and is often used as a child punishment. There's little point in giving the kids house arrests, when they never leave the house, Not try a "brainpower day" where all entertainment is powered by your own imagination.... See first off it teaches them imagination.
Sorry, got sidetracked there.
Anyhow, spending the last week on vacation meaning no connectivity to anything that wasn't run on a piece of paper is a pleasant calm time. And I enjoy it as much as the kids enjoy my full and utter attention.
It's when I get back to the Internet it gets funny, since people suddenly find me available again. For the past 48 hours I've been clammed down at work. Not able to go in to much details here, but basically basic issues have showed them self, and been waiting for my return rather then just going through the workpipe. Basically the week I've been on vacation I've just not been doing the work and therefore it's waiting for me to do now, and currently I'm not shall we say having much spare time during the short work hours. I hope most people familiar with me would know that this results in me just running a bit faster, as I haven't broken yet I seem able to run faster.
Sometimes I get amused of considering what will happen when I finally crack, whether that be tomorrow or next century, it'll happen sooner or later, and I doubt the world will be fixed before then sooo...
Same goes with all these Internet things:
This blog, Facebook, G+, other peoples blogs....
Now you might wonder: Why doesn't i just cut the crap then. How important is Facebook really...
In truth not much which can be seen on the time consumption I have with it. 30-45 minutes to run it through and interact with the most important from these past 11 days offline.
It's roughly the time I'll spend authoring this post.
What i get out of it? Well currently I'm merely updated as to who's doing something different then usual. The most recent E scams running, the heads up news on peoples heads. (haven't followed the news, so can't say which important issues are currently active).
Sure I could cut it, but it's unlikely i will as the trade off is okay and I need to remain FB active a while longer.
G+?
Well going through G+ took me less then 10 minutes. Why?
I don't need to pick up why the Apple Mini sucks or sucks not. I don't need to digest the images that are in the stream. So basically I can skip everything, as long as I don't get involved in anything. Easy...
Reading Blogs.... This I started already back Sunday, and I've spend an hour or 3 doing so already, but I still have the 5-10 hour backlog now. Why do it?
Because i care.
Now you might know why I'm reluctant to hold vacations. But what's your take on taking vacations?
Bring some feedback. Let's bring some life here.
Monday, September 24, 2012
The TODO list management (Part 2)
So been using Google Calendar for a while now, trying to flesh out the monster is my Chaos management.
One of the tools to do so was the "TO DO list" which I've been focusing on these 2 weeks.
Actually i should be evaluating my past weeks TO DO list right now, in order to optimize it.
Not really happening as you can see.
The tool has it's perks using the "You'll only manage to work 60% of the scheduled time, as the last 40% will be used up by interruptions" scheme.
This is quite true. And using this scheme for planning in the future will aide me in not overbooking myself too much. Trouble with actually doing my TO DO list here is that I don't work in such a nice and stable environment. Or maybe I do I just don't realize it.
The first week I was sticking close to the List and it worked okay, but the next week here I've just exited. I simply stopped looking at my tasks. The reason for this is that the tasks I'm mostly aware of needing to do are the boring tedious tasks like cleaning the mailbox. Things that doesn't hurt that much if not done this time around.
Well this, it doesn't hurt if I skip it this time around, tends to escalate? same thing with the doing the dishes, there's no problem in skipping once in awhile. As Long as you're getting it done completely at a later time.
Currently my mailbox has grown to a size where I frankly don't know what's in it. And as you all know, simply deleting it all often has a tendency to bite you in the arse later on.
The fun part in this project is that it works perfectly for my non work life. Sometimes you can wonder why my private life is so ordered compared to my cooperate life. Nevertheless.
In fact one of major issues tends to be hitting the sack at night. My body needs a certain amount of sleep. There is no way around it, trust me I've tried. But I always keep pushing it as I'm burning away the nightoile.
Having a simple reminder that's it's time to prepare for a shutdown, helps me meet that deadline. I don't think I've made it on time yet, but with my sleeping patterns half an hour makes quite a difference in the grand scheme.
So my conclusion on this project, as I'll be finishing it before the end is:
It's works wonders in an orderly setup, but it doesn't provide order itself.
I can use it when I build up projects and have fixed regular tasks, But that is also exactly what the wording imply I see.
It's a TO DO list. A horizontal list.... Hmmmm.
And yes, as Jeanette mentions in the first part: Remember to book your free and off hours. the 60% work vs 40% distraction isn't really that far off most places, you just tend to forget it.
One of the tools to do so was the "TO DO list" which I've been focusing on these 2 weeks.
Actually i should be evaluating my past weeks TO DO list right now, in order to optimize it.
Not really happening as you can see.
The tool has it's perks using the "You'll only manage to work 60% of the scheduled time, as the last 40% will be used up by interruptions" scheme.
This is quite true. And using this scheme for planning in the future will aide me in not overbooking myself too much. Trouble with actually doing my TO DO list here is that I don't work in such a nice and stable environment. Or maybe I do I just don't realize it.
The first week I was sticking close to the List and it worked okay, but the next week here I've just exited. I simply stopped looking at my tasks. The reason for this is that the tasks I'm mostly aware of needing to do are the boring tedious tasks like cleaning the mailbox. Things that doesn't hurt that much if not done this time around.
Well this, it doesn't hurt if I skip it this time around, tends to escalate? same thing with the doing the dishes, there's no problem in skipping once in awhile. As Long as you're getting it done completely at a later time.
Currently my mailbox has grown to a size where I frankly don't know what's in it. And as you all know, simply deleting it all often has a tendency to bite you in the arse later on.
The fun part in this project is that it works perfectly for my non work life. Sometimes you can wonder why my private life is so ordered compared to my cooperate life. Nevertheless.
In fact one of major issues tends to be hitting the sack at night. My body needs a certain amount of sleep. There is no way around it, trust me I've tried. But I always keep pushing it as I'm burning away the nightoile.
Having a simple reminder that's it's time to prepare for a shutdown, helps me meet that deadline. I don't think I've made it on time yet, but with my sleeping patterns half an hour makes quite a difference in the grand scheme.
So my conclusion on this project, as I'll be finishing it before the end is:
It's works wonders in an orderly setup, but it doesn't provide order itself.
I can use it when I build up projects and have fixed regular tasks, But that is also exactly what the wording imply I see.
It's a TO DO list. A horizontal list.... Hmmmm.
And yes, as Jeanette mentions in the first part: Remember to book your free and off hours. the 60% work vs 40% distraction isn't really that far off most places, you just tend to forget it.
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
The TODO list management (Part 1)
So After a while of thinking things through I finally committed to get a little more structure to my life.
One of the methods I've over the years have been suggested is the creation of TODO lists.
You know those lists where you'll put down all the things you need to do, and strike them off one by one?
Trouble with me is my ability to find things that never ends. So an item on my TODO list usually becomes yet another thing I have to deal with from now onward, until it becomes routine, and then i don't need it as an item on the list, same as I don't need to put toilet breaks on it. I've after all come to an age where I knows these things by heart.
Recently my wife suggested me to do a different strategy on the use of them.
Combine it with planning. Hmmm, Todo + planning it migth work. Well first it was suggested I went into one of these great teenage fits, simply by the fact that one of the presenters main objectives were: Priorities, fixing priorities. And that doesn't go well with me. I'm already spending 140% of the day just to keep up with the few things I've downrigth cut it back to. Making more cutbacks aren't really something anyone wants to see.
Anyway TODO + Planning.
So far I've spend a good while getting the first weeks TODO in order, and I'm keeping some notes for revision later (part 2).
In general the grand idea looks good on paper, but blogger isn't on the TODO list (Fixing mail inbox was).
I assume this will take a while to get into, being focus on the boring task, stop procrastinating etc etc. But let's see.
By the way if you have any great ideas, don't hesitate to share them, I need a laugh ;)
One of the methods I've over the years have been suggested is the creation of TODO lists.
You know those lists where you'll put down all the things you need to do, and strike them off one by one?
Trouble with me is my ability to find things that never ends. So an item on my TODO list usually becomes yet another thing I have to deal with from now onward, until it becomes routine, and then i don't need it as an item on the list, same as I don't need to put toilet breaks on it. I've after all come to an age where I knows these things by heart.
Recently my wife suggested me to do a different strategy on the use of them.
Combine it with planning. Hmmm, Todo + planning it migth work. Well first it was suggested I went into one of these great teenage fits, simply by the fact that one of the presenters main objectives were: Priorities, fixing priorities. And that doesn't go well with me. I'm already spending 140% of the day just to keep up with the few things I've downrigth cut it back to. Making more cutbacks aren't really something anyone wants to see.
Anyway TODO + Planning.
So far I've spend a good while getting the first weeks TODO in order, and I'm keeping some notes for revision later (part 2).
In general the grand idea looks good on paper, but blogger isn't on the TODO list (Fixing mail inbox was).
I assume this will take a while to get into, being focus on the boring task, stop procrastinating etc etc. But let's see.
By the way if you have any great ideas, don't hesitate to share them, I need a laugh ;)
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
Taking ones time.
As those that have been digging out my blog here will know most of my google experience stems from the usage of a Samsung Tabs 2 10.1" Wow a long name... My Slate. I use it for everything that is connected with Android and a lot of things that are based around Google. Like Google Drive (Generic spreadsheets for game logs). Latitude to find specific location of people that needs a ride from somewhere. G+, well if that needs an explanation get with the program. Google Navigation or Maps for GPS navigation (I usually have no idea of where anything is). And Turf for a but of fun. It's a GPS capture the flag game via android. "Turf", look it up, it's fun.
Something I had an initial idea would be great to use the Slate for was this:
Blogging, but it's not. In general it's just a huge mobile phone and the keyboard vs Blogger aren't quite working to a level that it's usable, unless you do the default 5 lines -> Publish -> Twitter -> expose, expose expose. And if you'd been reading just one of my post you'd know I'm not going there, even though I don't do much editorial on them.
And as usual 'm taking my time to underline the premise of my points.
I've finally found out what the Blogloving thing that keeps popping up every is.
It's basically a Blog Twitter.
I see the point in using it, considering SOE and stuff like that. But I don't Blog with SOE in mind.
I blog to put my mind on paper. It's nice that my thinking is shared, but frankly my mind isn't for everyone, and some might even get hurt. So keeping it relatively low key here.
Of course I have a desire to discuss what I put to file, yet I also understand very few people even comprehend my logic, even fewer catch my everlasting underlines. So I've grown natural to the concept that this is one way communication, if even that much.
Now stuff like Blogloving and Twitter, as said I understand the basic working of it. What I don't understand is why people bother. Using tools like this leaves you in a state where you'll always be the last to know. Unless you're the creator. It leaves no time for reflexion, you just press on.
And as much as I endorse such attitude of persistence, I always fail to see the end goal. The larger picture, where is it, that people are going?
I'm still amazed of the pace I see people having these days, until I realize the pace is reached by disregarding the past.
But that's my conclusions, what are yours?
Something I had an initial idea would be great to use the Slate for was this:
Blogging, but it's not. In general it's just a huge mobile phone and the keyboard vs Blogger aren't quite working to a level that it's usable, unless you do the default 5 lines -> Publish -> Twitter -> expose, expose expose. And if you'd been reading just one of my post you'd know I'm not going there, even though I don't do much editorial on them.
And as usual 'm taking my time to underline the premise of my points.
I've finally found out what the Blogloving thing that keeps popping up every is.
It's basically a Blog Twitter.
I see the point in using it, considering SOE and stuff like that. But I don't Blog with SOE in mind.
I blog to put my mind on paper. It's nice that my thinking is shared, but frankly my mind isn't for everyone, and some might even get hurt. So keeping it relatively low key here.
Of course I have a desire to discuss what I put to file, yet I also understand very few people even comprehend my logic, even fewer catch my everlasting underlines. So I've grown natural to the concept that this is one way communication, if even that much.
Now stuff like Blogloving and Twitter, as said I understand the basic working of it. What I don't understand is why people bother. Using tools like this leaves you in a state where you'll always be the last to know. Unless you're the creator. It leaves no time for reflexion, you just press on.
And as much as I endorse such attitude of persistence, I always fail to see the end goal. The larger picture, where is it, that people are going?
I'm still amazed of the pace I see people having these days, until I realize the pace is reached by disregarding the past.
But that's my conclusions, what are yours?
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
Liebster blog awards
So apparently I've been nominated for something called a Liebster blog award.
At first glance it's sort of a chain letter thing and as I always do with these things, I break the chain.
It's kind of a principle of mine not keep such things going. often they are pretty harmless and sweet, but some are rather nasty, when you look at them. Basically encouraging to do some form of harm to other, most often but passing on the chain.
So let's have a look at this:
So those are the rules, and feel free to go nominate people, the basic idea is good for any blog that hasn't already invalidated the award.
So Jea's Blanke Tanker nominated me and I will pick it up. She writes in danish, so I'll translate of course.
At first glance it's sort of a chain letter thing and as I always do with these things, I break the chain.
It's kind of a principle of mine not keep such things going. often they are pretty harmless and sweet, but some are rather nasty, when you look at them. Basically encouraging to do some form of harm to other, most often but passing on the chain.
So let's have a look at this:
- Everyone nominated must write 11 fact about one self.
- Answer the 11 questions posed by the nominator.
- Choose 11 new victims to pass on the chain and relink their blogs. (I won't do that, first off most of the blogs I read have a higher SOE then to bother, and if anyone wanted to do this they could and would simply pick it up)
- They need to have less then 200 readers.... Well, do I really need to dig those numbers out.
- Go to their page and tell them.
- Nominees can't back out. Hmm, sure they can. if they want to, they shouldn't be nominated in the first place. Think before acting, and do think again. It never hurts :)
So those are the rules, and feel free to go nominate people, the basic idea is good for any blog that hasn't already invalidated the award.
So Jea's Blanke Tanker nominated me and I will pick it up. She writes in danish, so I'll translate of course.
- What matters most to you in life?
- What's the most awesome experience you've had with you blog?
- How much of my blog have you been reading, and what is your favorite post?
- What is the most embarrassing you want to share with your readers?
- What is the last thing you ate?
- What animal would you compare yourself against?
- When was the last time you where treated to a really good time?
- When was the last time you were really scared?
- What was the last movie you watched?
- Who in your family do you admire the most?
- When was the last time you did a good deed?
I'll get back you answering when I've completed the other tasks...
Ohh that's easy write down 11 facts...
Let's see:
Well that's 11 uncommon facts I don't mind sharing with the WWW.
So for the questions:
1. What matters most to you in life?
This is a rather hard question to ask a person with my mindset, the quick and simple answer is nothing. The political correct answer is my family, children, wife etc expand as you wish. Truth is that what matter the most to me is my mind. I'm curious by nature and without a mind cable to actually cope with the loads of information I tend to gather from my unsuspecting surrounding, I'd be boredom which is essentially what I'd consider a slow death.
2. What's the most awesome experience you've had with you blog?
That's an easy one. I've had no experiences with my blog I deem worthy to even remotely remember.
Maybe with more activity and so on, but until people ready to read it finds it, it's merely an outward channel, with no reactions.
3. How much of my blog have you been reading, and what is your favorite post?
I've actually been reading all of Jea's Blanke Tanker. I rarely go more then a few hours after a new post before I read it. Often I forget or don't want to comment. Maybe i should make more of an effort to do so. Considering what my favorite post would be.... hvordan så hun det.. That one I believe.
4. What is the most embarrassing you want to share with your readers?
Now that's a funny question. As what's embarrassing tome, migth not be so for you, and vice versa.
I don't share stuff that I find personally embarrassing, at least to a higher degree then if we actually saw eye to eye over a barrel of coffee.
5. What is the last thing you ate?
White bread with butter and ham.
6. What animal would you compare yourself against?
If you need to ask, you don't really know me.
Does Tigger count???? To be more serious in the matter: Lynx
7. When was the last time you where treated to a really good time?
First off, I truly can't remember. Secondly, again: What you consider a royal time, I most likely will find dull and some task I need to be done with in order to have a great time.
8. When was the last time you were really scared?
I've been thinking about this fore a while now. Last summer I was scared and choked by a spider attacking, and I remember this because it once more showed me how I'd react in panicked situations. I was truly scared for 3 seconds, but that's all it takes rigth.
The more abstract form of being scared... Not really it's not in my blood, you'd have to tap into my primeval fears to trigger a response, which then would be instinctive and reactive.
9. What was the last movie you watched?
I need a while to remember: Dark Knigth Rises (Batman), can't remember if that was 4 or 11 days ago.
10. Who in your family do you admire the most?
That's an easy one. My grandfather, after that I'd say my father. They are and were a strange bunch, but they have/had character that demanded respect.
11. When was the last time you did a good deed?
What's a good deed really? If I give an alcholic a bottle of Liquor, he'd praise me for it, and call it a good deed, would you?
If I carry someone through life is that a good or sad deed?
If I kick someone that spite me and thus succeed, would me kicking them be a good deed?
I don't count or monitor when I do good or bad deeds. I merely act and hope you benefit the most from my actions, whether or not my actions involves any type of sacrifice on my part, And I'd certainly not bother you with my choices. I'm responsible for my own actions and not how you perceive them. You should remember and contemplate this as a universal truth, and then you can start asking yourself if that itself was a good deed.
Ohh that's easy write down 11 facts...
Let's see:
- I rarely only do one thing at anytime.
- I used to be a Lifeguard.
- I consume 3-4 liters of coffee everyday, by default.
- I've got children, 3 of them?
- I rarely sleep more ten 4 hours a day.
- I'm always 5-10 minutes late.
- I finally just picked up nineteen eighty four by George Orwell.
- I have my honor badge as, most Alternative Troubleshooter of my class, hanging at my office.
- I'm a certified sports couch.
- I'm an excellent marksman using rifles.
- I had schematic to recreate a arm-keyboard qwerty style, the size and essentially rip-off from The movie predator, 1 year before the Nokia Communicator reached the market. Cardboard prototypes with interfaces etc.
Well that's 11 uncommon facts I don't mind sharing with the WWW.
So for the questions:
1. What matters most to you in life?
This is a rather hard question to ask a person with my mindset, the quick and simple answer is nothing. The political correct answer is my family, children, wife etc expand as you wish. Truth is that what matter the most to me is my mind. I'm curious by nature and without a mind cable to actually cope with the loads of information I tend to gather from my unsuspecting surrounding, I'd be boredom which is essentially what I'd consider a slow death.
2. What's the most awesome experience you've had with you blog?
That's an easy one. I've had no experiences with my blog I deem worthy to even remotely remember.
Maybe with more activity and so on, but until people ready to read it finds it, it's merely an outward channel, with no reactions.
3. How much of my blog have you been reading, and what is your favorite post?
I've actually been reading all of Jea's Blanke Tanker. I rarely go more then a few hours after a new post before I read it. Often I forget or don't want to comment. Maybe i should make more of an effort to do so. Considering what my favorite post would be.... hvordan så hun det.. That one I believe.
4. What is the most embarrassing you want to share with your readers?
Now that's a funny question. As what's embarrassing tome, migth not be so for you, and vice versa.
I don't share stuff that I find personally embarrassing, at least to a higher degree then if we actually saw eye to eye over a barrel of coffee.
5. What is the last thing you ate?
White bread with butter and ham.
6. What animal would you compare yourself against?
If you need to ask, you don't really know me.
Does Tigger count???? To be more serious in the matter: Lynx
7. When was the last time you where treated to a really good time?
First off, I truly can't remember. Secondly, again: What you consider a royal time, I most likely will find dull and some task I need to be done with in order to have a great time.
8. When was the last time you were really scared?
I've been thinking about this fore a while now. Last summer I was scared and choked by a spider attacking, and I remember this because it once more showed me how I'd react in panicked situations. I was truly scared for 3 seconds, but that's all it takes rigth.
The more abstract form of being scared... Not really it's not in my blood, you'd have to tap into my primeval fears to trigger a response, which then would be instinctive and reactive.
9. What was the last movie you watched?
I need a while to remember: Dark Knigth Rises (Batman), can't remember if that was 4 or 11 days ago.
10. Who in your family do you admire the most?
That's an easy one. My grandfather, after that I'd say my father. They are and were a strange bunch, but they have/had character that demanded respect.
11. When was the last time you did a good deed?
What's a good deed really? If I give an alcholic a bottle of Liquor, he'd praise me for it, and call it a good deed, would you?
If I carry someone through life is that a good or sad deed?
If I kick someone that spite me and thus succeed, would me kicking them be a good deed?
I don't count or monitor when I do good or bad deeds. I merely act and hope you benefit the most from my actions, whether or not my actions involves any type of sacrifice on my part, And I'd certainly not bother you with my choices. I'm responsible for my own actions and not how you perceive them. You should remember and contemplate this as a universal truth, and then you can start asking yourself if that itself was a good deed.
Thursday, August 9, 2012
Reflexions on the attitude of current people
It's been a while since last as I've had less time actively online. I'll see if I can remedy that.
Yesterday I got the inspiration for this, and I'll try something new.
I already have a point to make : I'm seeing greedy, give me more styles people everywhere with little or no will to earn their keep.
I find it to be a global problem of the current generations.
I think I'm different.
And I have of cause the rigth thinking anybody just need to eliminate this issue. :)
This is my pretext and soon I'll start hitting the keys and throw one random though after the other to explain, clarify, justify etc. why exactly the way I think is the only rigth way.
With a hint of irony people actually knowing me, would also know that I'm merely complaining, pointing and hope someone would benefit from what I consider clear vision, yet no necessary something that should be adopted.
Hmmm maybe my constant ambivalent attitude for all esthetic concepts, sorry I'm a Libra.
On with the show shall we:
For the past 10 years roughly I've been a very integrated part of a local community thing, basically it started as a net cafe back when people went to places like that to play video games, simply course having a gaming rig at home was not for everyone. It was just before that shifted and the price for PC went down far enough for people to start acquire them, getting Internet connections at home and so forth. With that trend on the move the business model in it wasn't good, and putting personal wages on the expense list simply wasn't an option. The cafe was in danger of closing for this reason. But instead the owner decided to offer the whole setup as a volunteer project. We had the equipment, the software and the clients were steady and helpful engaging people.
Soon it's opening hours were in the afternoon / evening with volunteers overseeing the administrative part of unlocking the machines for usage and stuff. Thing we were some 10 people putting in oversight hours and the former owner being chairman of it putting in some 50 hours a week. Off this of pure passion. I was there from the start being the accountant, meaning i have the past 10 years of financial records. We had some 500 member using it. After a few years the bookkeeper stopped and I was appointed that task on my own admission. Loads of stuff I was always trying to make the Bookkeeper understand, like for instance the benefit of having the financial records on Excel sheets rather then in analogue ledger books and using paper notes for all and every transaction. Being the bookkeeper I made it so. This spring I passed the torch. Been meaning to do so for a long time, the job was easy after I've made most things rather automatic, and we got sponsored by the local munity with housings and utilities.
Over the years the engagement have slowly deteriorated to the point that currently I know of only 10-20 confirmed members, 7 being needed for the management that enables the setup to work in the first place.
Being a gaming centric thing we draw in young people, many of those have grown up, hell even I've grown older with multiple kids of my own. Which is why I'm slowly exiting the setup and passing on the torch.
The chairman kept putting in the hours, even increasing them, with passion and vigilance (he's in the 60's now), and the price has finally caugth up with him and he's not even part of the setup today.
All the time the Idea was to have the young people enter the management part of the setup to ensure it's legacy, and there's more to it then just playing some video games. It's always been a place open to anyone, embraceing anyone.... See why we got local sponsorship?
But the youth never really entered management, that part was taken care of by current management so why bother. This spring we were down to the Chairman, I and 1-2 others still actively keeping things aloft, The chairman had to drop his role as the workload and engagement was ruining him and had been for quite a while. I wanted to stop s I was never there anymore, focusing on raising my own kids rather then raising other (I'm one of those people that needs 18-20 hours a day to complete the daily list of things I want done, and it's not enough). So currently the management is comprised of the youth using the setup, or what's left of it. They are actually even only doing it under threats that is they don't it's close down.
So considering they are young and new to it all, nothing has happen to the setup, and it keeps declining, and it's currently dangerously close to lose sponsorship due to lack of engagement.
Since the start of this setup I've been part of it on the sideline, offering help and advise, but not being willing to do things, simply under the idea that "I won't stay around and you need to learn..."
I spend my Wednesday simply being available for them, most often I just sit at watch YouTube, as there are no one to help or anyone that wants help. Also the setup needs regular announced opening hours or lose sponsorship. The fact I'm present solves this issue for now.
Okay that was a very long background explanation to something else: No one want to pull their load!
This attitude I seem to encounter with many of the younger generation?
Someone will provide for me. Erhhh no!
If you want something done, let someone else do it? Erhh, no!
What happened to: I want to carve out my own place in life, and I will eat dust if that's what it takes.
I grew up in a time when things started to move from Though luck. -> That's too bad, we need to help this poor fellow.
It's been a very long time since I've talked to anyone declining alms, under the idea that they wanted to make their own.
I'm told my ideology surrounding this is stupid. Why decline help if you could benefit. When i start explaining I want to prove that I can do, and I can pull my own load. I get this baffled look. People shake their heads and call me stupid.
Sure it's stupid, it's a principle. Show me one principle that isn't stupid once pressed to the edge. But isn't that the very nature of a principle.
See this is where I starting thinking out loud:
So if principles by nature are stupid act, that are justified by higher means for serving a higher purpose. What higher purposes are people in general driving at? Where are they heading?
Guess I have moral discuessing too rarely :)
This is actually something I'd really like to know, so please, put in a few comments about your principles and especially your "higher purpose". I promise I won't judge, much.
But I from current memory can't put a finger on anyone having a set course towards a higher purpose, starting this thing most youngers don't have any. Well besides greed.
Yes sorry, that's one of my troubles with the times, greedy people. No one ever have enough, they always want more, simply to get more. Very few people will adhere to being content with current state of living.
I won't get into that today.
My starting point was: I'm seeing greedy, give me more styles people everywhere with little or no will to earn their keep.
I didn't make that point very well now did I?
I'll do that in short then: Ask around who'd decline alms/charity/sponsor with no attachment other then the label that they are getting it. Add to it, do they need it (of cause), and why? Do you agree?
Asking around, I'm sure you'll come to the same conclusion:
I find it to be a global problem of the current generations.
I think I'm different.
Of course I am, who isn't. Best question would be, are you different?
And I have of cause the rigth thinking anybody needs to eliminate this issue. :)
Of cause I do, question is what other issues thinking as I do would raise. The principle of Do or Die actually means someone will die... I won't tell anyone if that's a good or bad thing, but it's fact.
Yesterday I got the inspiration for this, and I'll try something new.
I already have a point to make : I'm seeing greedy, give me more styles people everywhere with little or no will to earn their keep.
I find it to be a global problem of the current generations.
I think I'm different.
And I have of cause the rigth thinking anybody just need to eliminate this issue. :)
This is my pretext and soon I'll start hitting the keys and throw one random though after the other to explain, clarify, justify etc. why exactly the way I think is the only rigth way.
With a hint of irony people actually knowing me, would also know that I'm merely complaining, pointing and hope someone would benefit from what I consider clear vision, yet no necessary something that should be adopted.
Hmmm maybe my constant ambivalent attitude for all esthetic concepts, sorry I'm a Libra.
On with the show shall we:
For the past 10 years roughly I've been a very integrated part of a local community thing, basically it started as a net cafe back when people went to places like that to play video games, simply course having a gaming rig at home was not for everyone. It was just before that shifted and the price for PC went down far enough for people to start acquire them, getting Internet connections at home and so forth. With that trend on the move the business model in it wasn't good, and putting personal wages on the expense list simply wasn't an option. The cafe was in danger of closing for this reason. But instead the owner decided to offer the whole setup as a volunteer project. We had the equipment, the software and the clients were steady and helpful engaging people.
Soon it's opening hours were in the afternoon / evening with volunteers overseeing the administrative part of unlocking the machines for usage and stuff. Thing we were some 10 people putting in oversight hours and the former owner being chairman of it putting in some 50 hours a week. Off this of pure passion. I was there from the start being the accountant, meaning i have the past 10 years of financial records. We had some 500 member using it. After a few years the bookkeeper stopped and I was appointed that task on my own admission. Loads of stuff I was always trying to make the Bookkeeper understand, like for instance the benefit of having the financial records on Excel sheets rather then in analogue ledger books and using paper notes for all and every transaction. Being the bookkeeper I made it so. This spring I passed the torch. Been meaning to do so for a long time, the job was easy after I've made most things rather automatic, and we got sponsored by the local munity with housings and utilities.
Over the years the engagement have slowly deteriorated to the point that currently I know of only 10-20 confirmed members, 7 being needed for the management that enables the setup to work in the first place.
Being a gaming centric thing we draw in young people, many of those have grown up, hell even I've grown older with multiple kids of my own. Which is why I'm slowly exiting the setup and passing on the torch.
The chairman kept putting in the hours, even increasing them, with passion and vigilance (he's in the 60's now), and the price has finally caugth up with him and he's not even part of the setup today.
All the time the Idea was to have the young people enter the management part of the setup to ensure it's legacy, and there's more to it then just playing some video games. It's always been a place open to anyone, embraceing anyone.... See why we got local sponsorship?
But the youth never really entered management, that part was taken care of by current management so why bother. This spring we were down to the Chairman, I and 1-2 others still actively keeping things aloft, The chairman had to drop his role as the workload and engagement was ruining him and had been for quite a while. I wanted to stop s I was never there anymore, focusing on raising my own kids rather then raising other (I'm one of those people that needs 18-20 hours a day to complete the daily list of things I want done, and it's not enough). So currently the management is comprised of the youth using the setup, or what's left of it. They are actually even only doing it under threats that is they don't it's close down.
So considering they are young and new to it all, nothing has happen to the setup, and it keeps declining, and it's currently dangerously close to lose sponsorship due to lack of engagement.
Since the start of this setup I've been part of it on the sideline, offering help and advise, but not being willing to do things, simply under the idea that "I won't stay around and you need to learn..."
I spend my Wednesday simply being available for them, most often I just sit at watch YouTube, as there are no one to help or anyone that wants help. Also the setup needs regular announced opening hours or lose sponsorship. The fact I'm present solves this issue for now.
Okay that was a very long background explanation to something else: No one want to pull their load!
This attitude I seem to encounter with many of the younger generation?
Someone will provide for me. Erhhh no!
If you want something done, let someone else do it? Erhh, no!
What happened to: I want to carve out my own place in life, and I will eat dust if that's what it takes.
I grew up in a time when things started to move from Though luck. -> That's too bad, we need to help this poor fellow.
It's been a very long time since I've talked to anyone declining alms, under the idea that they wanted to make their own.
I'm told my ideology surrounding this is stupid. Why decline help if you could benefit. When i start explaining I want to prove that I can do, and I can pull my own load. I get this baffled look. People shake their heads and call me stupid.
Sure it's stupid, it's a principle. Show me one principle that isn't stupid once pressed to the edge. But isn't that the very nature of a principle.
See this is where I starting thinking out loud:
So if principles by nature are stupid act, that are justified by higher means for serving a higher purpose. What higher purposes are people in general driving at? Where are they heading?
Guess I have moral discuessing too rarely :)
This is actually something I'd really like to know, so please, put in a few comments about your principles and especially your "higher purpose". I promise I won't judge, much.
But I from current memory can't put a finger on anyone having a set course towards a higher purpose, starting this thing most youngers don't have any. Well besides greed.
Yes sorry, that's one of my troubles with the times, greedy people. No one ever have enough, they always want more, simply to get more. Very few people will adhere to being content with current state of living.
I won't get into that today.
My starting point was: I'm seeing greedy, give me more styles people everywhere with little or no will to earn their keep.
I didn't make that point very well now did I?
I'll do that in short then: Ask around who'd decline alms/charity/sponsor with no attachment other then the label that they are getting it. Add to it, do they need it (of cause), and why? Do you agree?
Asking around, I'm sure you'll come to the same conclusion:
I find it to be a global problem of the current generations.
I think I'm different.
Of course I am, who isn't. Best question would be, are you different?
And I have of cause the rigth thinking anybody needs to eliminate this issue. :)
Of cause I do, question is what other issues thinking as I do would raise. The principle of Do or Die actually means someone will die... I won't tell anyone if that's a good or bad thing, but it's fact.
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
Consolidate damn it.
So it's summer time and I've been somewhat busy doing nothing.
The result of that is that I drop out loads of information streams and I have plenty trouble just keeping up.
It brings into focus one of the reasons I've grown tired and bored of Facebook and basically is just waiting to delete it.
To me the discovery and G+ was a one of the Hey, I've been looking for exactly this thing. Then I threw myself into it with the usual blind vigor that this type of media intuitively set upon you.
Setting out I had few to no one to follow, and the interest of their postings were marginally of interest. but you got to load the stream, don't you?
As mentioned before I'm using an Samsung tablet for mobility namely navigation, and I love the concept of Google Latitude. Setting that up a Google account was needed and with that you're suddenly got Calendar, Gmail, G+, Blogger, YouTube, ?Drive?, play, Picasa and personalized searches.
Setting out here provides me with something I haven't had for quite a while: A clean slate. Trouble with that is that it's clean. Having a relative need to be seen that state doesn't last for long. So quickly I start filling up with general public stuff i like to watch but have little to need on interacting with, the "Entertain me" path. That is already in a place where I actually should start uncircling some, or at least start to sort it better. Caturnday is funny, but when you see nothing but cute cats, they grow tiresome rather then funny.
Actually this would be a cry for help I guess, having issues and trouble defining precisely what I like and where i want to go. Sure I have interests, most notoriously would be my passion for anthropology (Study of human, and social interactions and it's effect on it's environment).
Of note I personally involve in Eve-online which would be somewhat the top experiment on that. (It being a video game and entertainment in itself helps a lot)
Putting my interest this precise should or would help in finding points of interactive interest, rigth?
No, in fact it just makes everything harder.
Knowing precisely what I like to spend time doing, puts in contrast precisely what I don't want to spend time doing.
An example to illustrate clearly:
The minefield of Religion....
I like discussing religion, and minor details of it, what ever religion that may be.
I'm not a religious person, and I never will be. I will accept I'm wrong from time to time.
I will never accept salvation in acknowledgement that I'm wrong, or blindly accept being wrong (or right).
Religious debaters tends to be going in the extremes and that's where I stop following. When people them self stop processing the information they are given. It's one of the things i don't like in humans.
And now see what happened. I opened my mind and all direction is lost. And that is my main problem with virtually everything. I need stuff consolidated. Boxed and labeled would be nice too. It wouldn't work, but the labels would help.
With Google latitude, G+, Blogger being 3 different spheres of interaction I need to clean it up. Set up the circle structure. Figure out how publish to folks without circling them, or maybe I need to circle them to label them correctly...
Well it's summertime, now probably isn't the rigth time to figure this out.
Anyway, if you have advise on the usage of Circles, don't hesitate to share it, yet as with any religion I might not agree with you insights, but I'll give it considerable thoughts.
The result of that is that I drop out loads of information streams and I have plenty trouble just keeping up.
It brings into focus one of the reasons I've grown tired and bored of Facebook and basically is just waiting to delete it.
To me the discovery and G+ was a one of the Hey, I've been looking for exactly this thing. Then I threw myself into it with the usual blind vigor that this type of media intuitively set upon you.
Setting out I had few to no one to follow, and the interest of their postings were marginally of interest. but you got to load the stream, don't you?
As mentioned before I'm using an Samsung tablet for mobility namely navigation, and I love the concept of Google Latitude. Setting that up a Google account was needed and with that you're suddenly got Calendar, Gmail, G+, Blogger, YouTube, ?Drive?, play, Picasa and personalized searches.
Setting out here provides me with something I haven't had for quite a while: A clean slate. Trouble with that is that it's clean. Having a relative need to be seen that state doesn't last for long. So quickly I start filling up with general public stuff i like to watch but have little to need on interacting with, the "Entertain me" path. That is already in a place where I actually should start uncircling some, or at least start to sort it better. Caturnday is funny, but when you see nothing but cute cats, they grow tiresome rather then funny.
Actually this would be a cry for help I guess, having issues and trouble defining precisely what I like and where i want to go. Sure I have interests, most notoriously would be my passion for anthropology (Study of human, and social interactions and it's effect on it's environment).
Of note I personally involve in Eve-online which would be somewhat the top experiment on that. (It being a video game and entertainment in itself helps a lot)
Putting my interest this precise should or would help in finding points of interactive interest, rigth?
No, in fact it just makes everything harder.
Knowing precisely what I like to spend time doing, puts in contrast precisely what I don't want to spend time doing.
An example to illustrate clearly:
The minefield of Religion....
I like discussing religion, and minor details of it, what ever religion that may be.
I'm not a religious person, and I never will be. I will accept I'm wrong from time to time.
I will never accept salvation in acknowledgement that I'm wrong, or blindly accept being wrong (or right).
Religious debaters tends to be going in the extremes and that's where I stop following. When people them self stop processing the information they are given. It's one of the things i don't like in humans.
And now see what happened. I opened my mind and all direction is lost. And that is my main problem with virtually everything. I need stuff consolidated. Boxed and labeled would be nice too. It wouldn't work, but the labels would help.
With Google latitude, G+, Blogger being 3 different spheres of interaction I need to clean it up. Set up the circle structure. Figure out how publish to folks without circling them, or maybe I need to circle them to label them correctly...
"Moar work"Cited from Peon 7, Warcraft 3
Well it's summertime, now probably isn't the rigth time to figure this out.
Anyway, if you have advise on the usage of Circles, don't hesitate to share it, yet as with any religion I might not agree with you insights, but I'll give it considerable thoughts.
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