When is it too much?

For the past week or so I've noticed my G+ feed acting a little strange compare to what I was used to. And I found out why.

Back when i started the stream was cronologic, meaning that a post made at 10 would preceded a post made at 11 O'clock. This has changed.

Back in January when i still spend a bit of time going through my facebook wall, I noticed the same behavior, and i used quite a while to consistently sort the stream from "most relevant" to "by time". In the beginning I accepted it a a new feature and the fact that the setting back to relevant was based on bugs and behaviour shaping. After all Facebook is a business and they hae interest in making me consider something relevant according to their sales rather then my personal preferences. Knowing this it was irritations and fueled further my detachment from facebook, and spawned yet another good arguments as why facebook was the evil of this world.
By the time I left I've grown completely detached to my stream and didn't bother sorting it anymore, knowingly scrolling down the list to find the post i had interest with or simply ignoring it.


For those not knowing where this idea comes from, it was made public knowledge a few years back when Mark Zuckenberg (the FB founder), proclaimed that in today's world it was often the case that a squirrel dying in your backyard was more important news to you, then the fact that the danish social security numbers database has been hacked and is now public knowledge. Even if your danish this statement holds true.
Eli Fennell did a very nice TED talk about it, he's on G+ look him up.


Now for those that won't bother with TED, here's the effect of what's going on: All content provided to you is filtered in some way. The main motif is of course first off attention, second off it's earnings. These are mechanisms we're familiar with, just look for bill boards, or other add in your surroundings.


So what's my problem?
My problem is that something is being filtered away from my perspective, and I need to make a concerted effort for finding it. In a rush i most likely won't see it and it'll disappear in the masses. Then again what would i be missing out on?
Well everything that I have special or geeky interest in. everything that isn't mainstream, so frankly everything I actually want to know.
on the other hand what I gain is that everything I have an interest in that is mainstream will be smeared my my face until I'm ready to puke.
My opinion of things will be shaped to conform.

I miss my G+ stream freedom. If anyone can tell me how to get it back I'd be very happy, but this philosophy of the dead squirrel will not go away soon, and I don't think the masses will reject it as only a select few understands what going on. It saddens me this is the way things are heading.

The willpower to succeed.

So I've kinda had a rather hectic week as usual.
One of my major issues this week have been the fact I was essentially starting to smoke again.

Don't get me wrong i want to smoke, but not in a continuously habit basis. I'm fine with taking a small pack or so during a party. Trouble is most of this week have been prelude to the parties during the weekend so I've kinda been smoking all week. To put in reference I stopped from one minute to the next some 2 month ago and I was doing fine.

So now I basically started again and I hate it. i makes me dependant on something that I really don't need, yet is plays tricks on my "wants". And after the party I didn't smoke yesterday, so why did I pick up a pack on the way to work?

Have you ever had the "lose/lose" scenario?
No matter how I'd flip it I'd lose today. if I didn't go smoking I'd be a furious hell storm of anger towards everybody, which would effect the quality of the work i need to perform today.
The other option which I picked I'd give in to my urges and smoke even though I don't really want to.

And I hate me self for not having enough willpower to stay the course.
I'll get around to it, but not today.

What I need to do it stand my ground towards my own desires and simply not acquire new smokes, this way I'll run out and without any to restart and refraining from getting new ones, I'll detoxified in a few weeks and I'll be back in routine of not smoking. During this time I'll have to fight my own urges and counter any scheme my mind will play on me. The way to do it is quite simple: Just say NO. It's just so bloody hard to say no to yourself.

For those of you that figures this is unique, consider if you haven't had these battles with yourself before.
Did you fall for your own schemes and deceptions or did you stand your ground long enough to get into a routine, where willpower stops to be the focusing factor?

It's been awhile.

So it's been quite awhile since I've been writting here.
It's not the first time I run into break when I'm doing this. And you migth ask why did I return now?

1. Project Cykelklovnen has completed. (4500 kms bike riding done, wrote the blog, got the T-Shirt).
2. I therefore started closure of my Facebook account.
3. I've aquired way too many old classical PC games.
4. I've been invited to a Bloggers meet up.

I'll run over these one by one, so feel free to skip sections of me you don't align with.

1: Project Cykelklovnen has completed. (4.500 kms bike riding done, wrote the blog, got the T-Shirt).

Cryptically as usual, I've written a blog about this whole thing (in danish), I've gotten a good load of sponsored clothings and so on. As said, wrote a blog, go read that for details.
For the summary: During this spring and summer I was challenged to ride a bicycle from Aarhus to Paris which is roughly 1350 kms. That's not something you just do, so I've been training for it riding some 3.000 kms during spring and summer. Most surpricingly I've got some kind of bodyhealth back so now I can actually move arround again and still breathe. I've kinda stopped smoking on a daily basic, and reserve that as party thing in line with drinking. No, I don't drink a bottle of red wine everyday to get a little buzzed.

In my world it's not that big a thing. It's note worthy. It's taken some work. Some sacrifies have been made. I've reached a body state I'm more content with then I've had for 2 decades. I'll need more training to perform even better. As said: It's not a big thing and it's in the past anyhow.

As for those reading the blog... Yep: I managed to provide some purple to the team, fitting in is for the uninspired.

2: I started closure of my Facebook account.

Yep, facebook have been a torn in my eyes for quite awhile now. Last year I gave it some 6 months to shape up or GTFO.

Needless to say facebook didn't shape up, infact they'd gotten way worse. The issue of overwriting you contact information with their data back in february didn't even shock me.

I've been hating all this since I noticed Iphones where tracking your geolocations for the advertizing databases behind your back, and wouldn't admit to it. Here in June facebook was hacked and according to law they had to disclose what information was accessed and exposed... Of course they tried to downplay that they had not legitimite rigth to the information that was hacked, and hide from public what data was exposed.... Of course the hackers then made their data public, and another FB scandal was born.

The great fun in this (not fun as in ha ha) is that very few even noticed. Maybe that was contributed the fact the Facebook share price went up... Thus Wallstreet got paid, nevermind that average joe once again was molsted to a degree he doesn't even understand.

It's all about trust these days. Everything is freely obtainable, there are few or no secrets left for those with resources to aquire them.

And as I've proberbly mentioned before. I use G+ for 1 single reason: It's the only place you tick things off, everywere else you have to remove ticks you don't want. I use G+ because of that mindset. 

Let me choose what I want want, not what I don't want to pay...

Basicly: I've just today deleted my facebook account and I'm not going back. Got a couple of gaming accounts I migth use, both to have a look and to do that Facebook gaming.... Maybe... maybe not, what facebook game is really worth my time now I think about it...... Well, I need to have the occational look to maintain the knowledge of where they are. I suppose...

3: I've aquired way too many old classical PC games.

For a while now I've grown tired of my Eve-Online. The crowd have left, the subscribtion fee is takng it's toll, well sure I pay using ingame currency, but it takes me 20-30 hours pr week to gather that. Not smoking grants me real money to simply just pay up, and then why even log in as I don't really have a goal. Well I've got plenty goals, but I'm very much alone in there these days and I haven't had the energy to change that.

Also I've had way many classic games I've never got further with. Plus Good Old Games have had some unfair sales lately. Now I've got Diablo 2, Dawn of War 2, Baldurs gate and stuff, Fallout 1 & 2, Civilization IV, Settlers 2, Neverwinter Night 1 & 2, and the minecraft servers, Don't starve (I know).

For frag sake I need a couple of life times to deal with all that. Some are biblophiles, maybe i've gamophile :)

If anyone have intrest I can workout some more game oriented posts and place them else where, maybe in the project pages, create a new blog and so on. Could be fun, but I'm not going to do it for me, myself and I.

4: I've been invited to a Bloggers meet up.

It's not visible, but I've been on the blogging thing since before it was invented. I'm doing it wrong, sure. And frankly I'm not sure what to make of this blog, nor most of the others.

The Cykelklovnen blog I was somewhat happy with, It could use a loving hand in the design department and so on (all my blogs need that), but it had a clear purpose. the thread I'm frequently accussed of missing. Most often I do have a thread or red line, but it's buried so deep in hidden contextual matter and references only I know (or people that knows me very very well, better then the wife) that nobody notices it.

This blog for instance is mostly some form of diary or journal of my existance, my eveblog os some form of diary or journal of that characters life/exitance. My project blog is some form of diary or journal of that projects life/existance... do we have a common theme here? Cykelklovnen was to provide documentation and exposure of a project (not my project), still it takes the form of a diary or journal. That's becoming rather tedious now. At anyrate I've been invited to attent a bloggers meet up and I intent to join, even got a few I want to inite myself. I've never tried it, but i suspect an exchange of experience and ideas in this field. I have made a bucket of choises to land here. I see other making the same choices, but different answers. one example could be adSense. I don't use it as I don't want to advertise or generate revenue with this. Well i suppose anything is up for discuession, and I don't have the traffic to be interrestig so easy answer for me, harder for others. Another thing that is rather popular in the blogoshere is having the author review something.. Again that's something you won't see here. The idea is you get something and then you write a review. Hmmm, again. I'm being idealistic but if Google gave me a Glass, would I accept it? Would I accept it on terms that I needed to write a review.... Would I accept it on terms that I needed to write a positive review: NO!

Would my review be positive: Most likely.

Would I aquire and review a pair on my own: Sure (if i had the resources).

Well interresting things to flip with participents plus I've got a few to invite myself if they have the time.

5: Now what?

Rigth so breaks over. Now what? I don't have a clear plan, and I don't think I'll write each and every day again. Maybe I should try for that weekly update thing. have an open post I'll be working on all week. post it on Sunday....

PS. The title comes from an audio in my mind, where the words are spoken by Deckard Cain from Diablo, and his voice is very similar to Warrics and reminds me of something Star Trekish, maybe Patrick Stewart  Yes some of my text actually have a sound and/or reference. Maybe I should make an effort in fleshing them out once in a while.

Forgive and forget?

Once more it has been a while. And this time i guess i bring about one of the heavies.
First I feel a need to point out that I'm not in any way religious, yet I am a very spiritual person.

I came across this Love and forgiveness as tools of personal growth while catching up on my stream, and the title stirred something so i started reading. My first realization is that now I know what people mean when they tell me I throw to many words at them without pause :)


To sum up what I get from it:

1. You life is basically set at the age of 6.
2. Parents are especially responsible for their childrens mindset.
3. Setting the correct path makes most thing peachy.
4. Forgiveness is a very strong tool.

I don't completely agree, but I see the point and I even learn from reading it.
First off I had to set aside that it wasn't written with people like me in mind. And that most people are not like me. From there I can raise my mind above it all and look for the good parts that I'd like to pass on to others in search of decent living principles.

Keep in mind there's no "Way of life", each individual perceives the world through a filter that in composed of a multitude of things that have different influence by each individual. Any proficient psychologist would or should know that. Yet it is often a forgotten fact. Maybe you like red meat while I like mine medium done, and both ways are EQUALLY fine.. As there is no set path in life, and tastes are different.

Not too long ago I was presented to a likewise spiritual person from a completely different culture then my own European upbringing. and I believe the first philosophical challenge I presented was why she should be the judge of what is good and bad?

It's a common misunderstanding that if you mean well your actions are benevolent (good in nature). Trouble arises when you start to judge what other should perceive as well being. A classic is the one of helping out...
That is not always the benevolent path as helping might prevent the individual being helped from evolving into to a stronger person.
I figured an old Buddhism story about giving moneys to beggars were in fact seen as a "bad" karma thing, where most other cultures would see it as a "good karma" thing. (Yes, I know that there is nothing such as "good karma" and that all karma is bad, but that is something for time to discuss).

That was somewhat of a sidetrack which I don't think I closed prober, but we can do that some other time. Main point here and the line I'm walking is good and bad is always down to individuals. Besides Cirelda wrote a nice blog that doesn't deserve to be thrown into religious discussions.

Rather I want to point out my disagreements in general (noted in the bullet point):
Your life is set by the age of 6......
I disagree. Somewhat. As she points out herself, once you the an age where you're supposed to be a responsible adult person. You have the responsibility to seek assistance to handle the scars of your soul. Aligning your moral compass, choose your path in life, define your tastes.
And that is really a very important thing. Unless you unquestionably believe in fate in a way they you disregard any and all responsibility. Your first responsibility in this life of yours should be to make the choices you ultimately agree the most with. These don't always show as clearly as you expect. For instance it's a choose to pay the rent. Paying the rent will have the effect that you most likely have a roof over your head until next time the rent is due, likewise you could choose differently and NOT pay the rent which will ultimately have the effect you don't have the roof over you head. Of course there's other effects like if you didn't pay the rent, you most likely have that money to spend for something else, say food?
You always have a choice, whether you like it or not. Either accept this or accept that it is "fate".
And as you have a choice you have the power to do differently. Predictable or not, you ultimately had responsibility and made a choice.

Parents are especially responsible for their children's mindset.
Actually i agree here.
Children will always look to their parents for guidance, and it is our most holy task to provide them the best guidance we can. Again loads of factors are applied here. One of the heaviest factor is most often the parents own upbringing and their reactions to this.
For instance if someone is taught that you should play dead if attacked by a bear. Unless experience, education or some other outside effect have an impact on that persons perspective of bears, this is off course what that person will teach their own children. ( I have no clue what so ever to do if you encounter an angry bear, but I  don't think I'll try reasoning with it....)


Setting the correct path makes most thing peachy.
I've already touched on this. What you as a person yourself might have value in considering is who are the judges of "correct". And do you even like peaches?
Once you start getting a hold of that, start considering the merits of these judges....
Another thing a lot of people most often fail to realize is that there is no person that is enherrently evil/bad. No matter how malicious actions are concieved and performed, there is always at some level a desire for betterment someone. Trouble is when people don't quite agree what is good and bad, like commiting genocide. Good or bad? well depends on perspective really, still trust me those doing it REALLY believe they are doing a good thing, the greater good maybe even. Remember the German soldiers in WW2. Their belts was inscribed with something along the lines of Gods army. And I don't have the merits to be a judge of that.


Forgiveness is a very strong tool.
As the title say forgive and forget. I have children starting school and the default thing most children need to learn is to say I'm sorry........
It's one of my parental challenges to have they learn the diffrence between saying "I'm sorry" and to "be sorry". Most would tell me how wrong I am in this. But i actually take offence to indoctrination. And i believe strongly in truth. Always tell the truth, and only say things that you mean.
So when my children are schooled to blindly say: Forgive me, I'm sorry. Without understanding what they are doing I'm offended.
Sure, on the other end there's another child that is sad because they have just been hurt. This victim migth be apeaced somewhat by being told the harm was unintentionally.
Untill the children realize it was intented.... That they have been lied to.... That they are expected to lie them self quite often even..... (they have to repeat the process of telling: I'm sorry. Plenty times before it becomes a natural response)...
Same thing with forgiveness... I often notice people by default expect forgiveness if they merely ask it.
When i'm encoutering people asking me to forgive them, I usually get rather aggressive, and start digging them why I should forgive them. And that tends to scare people off.
I don't mind forgiving, and I doing quite often and fast. The people I forgive have no value knowing wether they are forgiven or not. I forgive and forget to apeace MY mind and life. Not theirs.
On the other hand some things I don't just forgive, less forget. Often I take a very long time forgiving my self :) And with that knowledge in hand an to round of everything:

When forgiving, and who are you forgiving, and why? Once understood it's lot easier to also forget which is needed inorder to truely forgive, rather then just saying the words without meaning.

The TODO list management (Part 2)

So been using Google Calendar for a while now, trying to flesh out the monster is my Chaos management.
One of the tools to do so was the "TO DO list" which I've been focusing on these 2 weeks.

Actually i should be evaluating my past weeks TO DO list right now, in order to optimize it.
Not really happening as you can see.

The tool has it's perks using the "You'll only manage to work 60% of the scheduled time, as the last 40% will be used up by interruptions" scheme.
This is quite true. And using this scheme for planning in the future will aide me in not overbooking myself too much. Trouble with actually doing my TO DO list here is that I don't work in such a nice and stable environment. Or maybe I do I just don't realize it.
The first week I was sticking close to the List and it worked okay, but the next week here I've just exited. I simply stopped looking at my tasks. The reason for this is that the tasks I'm mostly aware of needing to do are the boring tedious tasks like cleaning the mailbox. Things that doesn't hurt that much if not done this time around.
Well this, it doesn't hurt if I skip it this time around, tends to escalate? same thing with the doing the dishes, there's no problem in skipping once in awhile. As Long as you're getting it done completely at a later time.
Currently my mailbox has grown to a size where I frankly don't know what's in it. And as you all know, simply deleting it all often has a tendency to bite you in the arse later on.

The fun part in this project is that it works perfectly for my non work life. Sometimes you can wonder why my private life is so ordered compared to my cooperate life. Nevertheless.
In fact one of  major issues tends to be hitting the sack at night. My body needs a certain amount of sleep. There is no way around it, trust me I've tried. But I always keep pushing it as I'm burning away the nightoile.
Having a simple reminder that's it's time to prepare for a shutdown, helps me meet that deadline. I don't think I've made it on time yet, but with my sleeping patterns half an hour makes quite a difference in the grand scheme.

So my conclusion on this project, as I'll be finishing it before the end is:
It's works wonders in an orderly setup, but it doesn't provide order itself.

I can use it when I build up projects and have fixed regular tasks, But that is also exactly what the wording imply I see.
It's a TO DO list. A horizontal list.... Hmmmm.

And yes, as Jeanette mentions in the first part: Remember to book your free and off hours. the 60% work vs 40% distraction isn't really that far off most places, you just tend to forget it.

The TODO list management (Part 1)

So After a while of thinking things through I finally committed to get a little more structure to my life.
One of the methods I've over the years have been suggested is the creation of TODO lists.

You know those lists where you'll put down all the things you need to do, and strike them off one by one?

Trouble with me is my ability to find things that never ends. So an item on my TODO list usually becomes yet another thing I have to deal with from now onward, until it becomes routine, and then i don't need it as an item on the list, same as I don't need to put toilet breaks on it. I've after all come to an age where I knows these things by heart.

Recently my wife suggested me to do a different strategy on the use of them.
Combine it with planning. Hmmm, Todo + planning it migth work. Well first it was suggested I went into one of these great teenage fits, simply by the fact that one of the presenters main objectives were: Priorities, fixing priorities. And that doesn't go well with me. I'm already spending 140% of the day just to keep up with the few things I've downrigth cut it back to. Making more cutbacks aren't really something anyone wants to see.

Anyway TODO + Planning.
So far I've spend a good while getting the first weeks TODO in order, and I'm keeping some notes for revision later (part 2).

In general the grand idea looks good on paper, but blogger isn't on the TODO list (Fixing mail inbox was).
I assume this will take a while to get into, being focus on the boring task, stop procrastinating etc etc. But let's see.

By the way if you have any great ideas, don't hesitate to share them, I need a laugh ;)

Passion

I often at some point seem to write this down.

While currently writting I start wondering why I keep doing it. Maybe it's my way of telling the world better who and what I am, without even knowing it myself. At any rate thinking about it doesn't change it.

This is kind of a prelude to my coming "I want to be a Spacemarine when I grow up" entry I'll get around to sometime.

I'm a libra. According to astrology I'm a passionate person, and I must say it hold true. I have passion, and I have it in drowes to the point I excrete it.

I've been picking up a few blogs on blogger now that seems to be interesting pass times to dive into, and I see a common trade I seem unable to note in them and it's the Force of passion I so love.

Coming with a background philosofy of Bushido, I keep missing the followthru. I tend to me mostly attracted to force and the show of force, it being subtle or sensible. It's hard to explain in words as it's more a sense of feeling then it's an expresion.
For instance picking up one of my beloved tunes: Evanescene - Bring me to Life

I love the tune from it expresion of force, the tune itself by itself is actually rather simplistic and boring.
As we're talking in tunes, same thing happens with many more hardcore bands, an example could be Rammstein: Rammstein - Ich will

Listening to stuff like this completely immersed in the sensation of rhythmic sensation, following an emotion of determination. Completely ground you'll feel an urge to stand fast or react with forcefull intend. And here I find my understanding of Bushido.

For those unaware of what Bushido covers, I'm no expert but speaking from my own views, it's an ancient strategy code. Compare it to Tsu Sun teaching. Bushido was written in medieval Japan, by a samurai that shall we see had seen the light. He was succesfull and lived long enough to put his perspectives into writing.
The main principle is any action or reaction should be done in one single fluid motion. Stopping to think about it halfway through hampers you.

Reading this while writing and with my IT background and experience with projects of that sort, it makes no sense at all. As if you blindly implement a design without refactoring the design once in a while the end product will most often be bad.
Writing this I then again understand why Bushido works. You shouldn't implement a faulty design to begin with, and any implementation you start should be finished, closed and delivered. Before you start redesigning / refactoring. Complete your actions.

It's like if you fall off a cliff you have options... You can start screaming until you hit the ground... Not very effective, but you'll be noticed by everyone not in the same state.
Alternatively you can start falling and prepare yourself for the impact on the ground, and starting doing whatever you can for this impact to have the best possible outcome available to you.

If that was a cartoon, one would splatter all over the page, the other would make a crater, slowly rising to take on the next challenge. Which cartoon would you like to assosiate with?

And now I wonder how the frag I ended up here, as this wasn't quite the direction or conclusions I were putting into text.

A few tidbits of my brain, just so there's some form of reasoning to the title, and what I failed to put in text:
Passion isn't equal love. you can both hate and love with the same passion.

If you want me to better finish this on the rigth track, throw me your version of passion. Pictures are good:

Privacy settings, what do you mean by that?

So it's time to write up one of those thinking out loud posts, was thinking of writing futher about the Freebi project, but there's more to my rambling then a simple project.

Now I've been hanging on here for a few days or weeks, guided here by the fantastic marketing principles that are coming from Google. At first all i need, and still need is a navigation application for my Blackberry. Being the Nokia guy and being used to their Ovi maps for quite a while the transistion from Nokia to BB was somewhat horrific, and I still have the few setting issues to smoothen out, but it'll come along eventually. Frankly I need a software for sound editing that I can figure out how to use and that can create MP3's plus I need the time to settle down and get the sounds rigth the way i want them.

At any rate I stumbled across Latitude remembering the how flawless Google maps is, and being presented with the Google navigation used on an Android phone, I knew rigth away the Latitude was the thing I was seeking, I found it/installed it on the BB, yet to my disarray it's not working very well and the navigation isn't working either, at least as intented. I could have lived with the 5-6 hours of battery time having the Compass running non stop. But Latitude and my BB doesn't get along as latitude is not permitted to use the compass or something like that (I'm investigating). After these few weeks it's simply become way unstable though, same with the G+ app for BB. In fact I'm close to getting an extra mobil or pad for this purpose alone.... I've seen one on sales...android. Frankly i migth want it simply to use as a mobile platform. If you know of any good models please let me know so i can have a closer look..

Back to the point enlisting to Latitude, having a Gmail, and finally adding myself to the G+ network (yet another social thing) knowing my affinity for personal disorders (I've got more fake IDs then I have games). I fear that the google network would end up being just another....

Yet i have trouble placing it. Their views on the groupings using circles is rather comforting compared to the usual friend or not friend. Like they for one accept the fact we all interact in different setting. We don't say the same thing to everybody we know, we don't want to listen to everybody we know all the time. Like not all my hobbies doesn't really apply to you, but some of my hobbies migth have a great interest with you.

Yet i can't quite get it to work. One of my major problems is the fact I don't really know what interests me. Google haven't found out yet, I'm sure they will eventually, either that or i simply end up ruining their profiling. (It happens, i mess up my own profiling).
But at least it has potential, funny thing I've realized with Socials is that you effectively have to just drop the privacy settings. It's like either you go all in or you migth as well just stay back.

And this is where I start getting scared. My mind sees complex enough patterns to realized how most of these things work, where we're heading, the effect of what's going on. Stopping it, stemming the tide is a whole other matter. I don't even want to begin trying to understand the effects of my privacy settings, understanding where my information/data ends up etc. But does that mean I should keep everything in the business facade front "I'm running for President".
If that's the case, I should be on any of these things, as that'd be a very gray, rainy world. and frankly I like purple more.
Besides anonymity (being unknown) is not something you can do online anymore. In fact if you want to be incognito you need to stay offline. (profiling stuff gives away insane information if gathered).

I noticed some younger modern tech guys slowly adapting the philosophy that all data was exposed and available to everyone in the near future, and I see where they're going. But will they be rigth, and if not who's gonna stop em. (As opposed to the doctrine that data is owned by the creator, and access is well guarded).
Actually it's a quite funny thing that is currently going on in Denmark.
Everything is officially managed via Social sec. numbers, and a few + all the official channels consider this to be a unique identified that the person knowing this number is the person in the database. Reality is that these numbers listed with names are in fact to common online that anyone using a few minutes can pick up a name and Sec number and use it for what ever they like.
But there you have perceived reality that doesn't quite mix with reality. It's always fun to watch when that clashes. Hell when it happens to you. But at some point some one's gotta see the bigger picture, trouble is whether it's before or after some big scandal...



Okay, if you've been reading all the way down here you migth notice I don't quite have a stringent line of thinking, or criss cross all over the place. I migth, migth not have a point. This is how my mind works. This is what happens when I think out loud. I use the labels? Etiketter? to give a hint what I'm writing down. Just remember I'm merely trying to manage Chaos here. Ohh I love feedback...