When is it too much?

For the past week or so I've noticed my G+ feed acting a little strange compare to what I was used to. And I found out why.

Back when i started the stream was cronologic, meaning that a post made at 10 would preceded a post made at 11 O'clock. This has changed.

Back in January when i still spend a bit of time going through my facebook wall, I noticed the same behavior, and i used quite a while to consistently sort the stream from "most relevant" to "by time". In the beginning I accepted it a a new feature and the fact that the setting back to relevant was based on bugs and behaviour shaping. After all Facebook is a business and they hae interest in making me consider something relevant according to their sales rather then my personal preferences. Knowing this it was irritations and fueled further my detachment from facebook, and spawned yet another good arguments as why facebook was the evil of this world.
By the time I left I've grown completely detached to my stream and didn't bother sorting it anymore, knowingly scrolling down the list to find the post i had interest with or simply ignoring it.


For those not knowing where this idea comes from, it was made public knowledge a few years back when Mark Zuckenberg (the FB founder), proclaimed that in today's world it was often the case that a squirrel dying in your backyard was more important news to you, then the fact that the danish social security numbers database has been hacked and is now public knowledge. Even if your danish this statement holds true.
Eli Fennell did a very nice TED talk about it, he's on G+ look him up.


Now for those that won't bother with TED, here's the effect of what's going on: All content provided to you is filtered in some way. The main motif is of course first off attention, second off it's earnings. These are mechanisms we're familiar with, just look for bill boards, or other add in your surroundings.


So what's my problem?
My problem is that something is being filtered away from my perspective, and I need to make a concerted effort for finding it. In a rush i most likely won't see it and it'll disappear in the masses. Then again what would i be missing out on?
Well everything that I have special or geeky interest in. everything that isn't mainstream, so frankly everything I actually want to know.
on the other hand what I gain is that everything I have an interest in that is mainstream will be smeared my my face until I'm ready to puke.
My opinion of things will be shaped to conform.

I miss my G+ stream freedom. If anyone can tell me how to get it back I'd be very happy, but this philosophy of the dead squirrel will not go away soon, and I don't think the masses will reject it as only a select few understands what going on. It saddens me this is the way things are heading.

Frustration

I've been encouraged to write more often and shorter posts, here's one:

Yep I've stolen it, but atleast I'm leaving the captation  on it :)

So I ended up spending the better part of my nigth doing what nerds do: Develop.

This is nothing new, I tend to end up sitting in front of a screen, spending way too much time doing something that seems really simple, but for some reason I don't understand it, and I'm doing something wrong.
It's usually ends up being hours on hours on hours figuring out what a specific parameter of some program is doing, and what the effects are.

So after 5 hours of researching, tinkering I got the conclusion I started with (I was right).
What did I get from all that brainexploding? Confirmation!?!

5 hours constantly in the same state as the kitty there, no new retained usefull knowledge, no newly learned skill, no nothing, except confirmation.

How do I stop looking like a kitty?
I reside, retire, accept the state of things.
Would you?

Being insecure.

So this entry is actually inspired by a Co Blogger, that made an entry much like this.
At first i figured I'd just throw her a comment, but the more I started thinking about what to put in writing, and reading the other comments. The less I wanted to add directly to it.
If you're fine with Danish: Linky, otherwise try the translator.

So being insecure, doubting ones worth. Does that sound familiar to you personally?
It's a fact that most people feel insecure once in a while, trouble is when you feel insecure all the time.

We're a few people that tick this way, quite a few actually. When someone tells me that I'm good at something,  my mental process kicks in trying to figure out what the frag I'm done so wrong the other guy feels shamed to point it out, and needs to find something random to divert attention from whatever I've done.

Growing up being told your stupid, when you're not. Being told you're ugly when you're not, and so on.
A bit back i saw a YouTube link to a video of a little girl telling the camera how she was worth nothing and the like. I didn't watch the movie myself, once I via the comments saw what it was, I didn't need to. I've lived that life. I AM the most stupid person on the planet, I AM not most annoying person that ever lived.
I know this as I know breathing under water is difficult at least. (under special conditions that statement is false).

Much like the TV series "Lie to me", I tend to read and evaluate every little signal people sends out. The fact I don't understand their meaning, yet still I try to figure it out, makes my conclusions extreme. Experience have told me the safe bet is going with negative but that gives a rather dark and pessimistic world. Not taking it serious on the other hand often leads me into naive blind choices.
I don't read their signals, body language, in fact peoples body language most often confuses me, and people trying to read mine are often more confused than I, as all I ever really say is the words I use, to which I'm very very aware.

This makes me insecure, I don't know how to handle people. I don't have a natural flow of what to do when interacting with people. Quite often makes people interacting with me insecure also, as I take little interest in what is used for smalltalk.

In the end it's not something I'll ever get rid of, I'll always a tad weird, but I'll never stop trying to understand how it all works, be that for the better or worse, I don't care anymore. I'm here for the journey.

What to do?

So yesterday I spend the evening finalizing the TV show Lexx and I now have that in my backage. I could have done without it, and invested the time more wisely but it's a classic and thus I felt a need to experience it.
During the evening my host and I went on taking about gaming in general. We tend to share ideas when it comes to what's good and what's not, and age plays and important role, as we're both old enough to know the classics.

A bit back I explained how I've got this huge backlog of classics that I want to "complete". For those of you not playing computergames the concept is still easy to grasp: When I start a Title I intent to fully explorer and immerse myself into the package. As an example Diablo which I've given up on and replaced with Diablo 2. I need to run through the campaign on hell I guess, atleast on easy and see the full story before I can put it aside. It's something about ePeens. That's also why I like Steam for instance as you accumulate "trophies" for doing certain stuff.

The very nature of steam is infact poisonous to my approach on life. An example would be Popcaps Plants vs. Zombies, a funny and entertaining little game with loads of humor. It's simple and you quickly get bored of it. Then they introduce achivements, like Grow the Tree of Life, and suddenly there's a goal to it and I have to do it, as I have a problem witht he less then 100% completion.
I do encounter achivements that I simply just discard and from the start know I can't do and therefore accept them as uncompletable (without cheating). Most of these are Multiplay achivements like get 1000 wins ect. and frankly I'm that good. I'm not bad, but I'm really only good in the small pond.

Easy, I know I'm lossing track, but not quite...

Rigth those knowing me would recognize my facination and stubborn vigilance towards the game Eve-Online. I rarely discuess it as most people playing it have a very diffrent and more hostile approach to the system. And few understand why I skilltrain the way I do.
For those not familiar with Eve's skilltraining, it's based on real time, you set a skill to train and it will keep training untill it's done whether you're logged into the game or not, so age matters. And thusly patience becomes important. A fully trained skillset would escalate to 23 years of constant training soo.

I know: get to the point.. I'm close, be patient.

During our talks yesterday we went over various MMO's and games in general and why we both feel Eve is failing, and the fact that we both were looking for other stuff. Personally I've created an Planet Calypso account, and I kinda like that games for it's 2nd. Life approach. Also we went over Star citizen, which from my perspective looks very interresting, yet what drags me to the flame is what draged me to Eve. I've already invested loads of time in Eve, it would be stupid to reset and start over.

Here's the punchline:
I'm already going about blogging in a diary form about Eve-Online (I know I've been silent since i started mining). Thinking about the torrents of information of games already out there, should I rebuild the Maxx Loproc blog into a more general games oriented gaming blog?
Would YOU get anything from reading my experiences and achievements in various games?

It would seem i've already made up my mind, so rather what would you preffer published there?
What would make you return?
Would you help in building it?

The willpower to succeed.

So I've kinda had a rather hectic week as usual.
One of my major issues this week have been the fact I was essentially starting to smoke again.

Don't get me wrong i want to smoke, but not in a continuously habit basis. I'm fine with taking a small pack or so during a party. Trouble is most of this week have been prelude to the parties during the weekend so I've kinda been smoking all week. To put in reference I stopped from one minute to the next some 2 month ago and I was doing fine.

So now I basically started again and I hate it. i makes me dependant on something that I really don't need, yet is plays tricks on my "wants". And after the party I didn't smoke yesterday, so why did I pick up a pack on the way to work?

Have you ever had the "lose/lose" scenario?
No matter how I'd flip it I'd lose today. if I didn't go smoking I'd be a furious hell storm of anger towards everybody, which would effect the quality of the work i need to perform today.
The other option which I picked I'd give in to my urges and smoke even though I don't really want to.

And I hate me self for not having enough willpower to stay the course.
I'll get around to it, but not today.

What I need to do it stand my ground towards my own desires and simply not acquire new smokes, this way I'll run out and without any to restart and refraining from getting new ones, I'll detoxified in a few weeks and I'll be back in routine of not smoking. During this time I'll have to fight my own urges and counter any scheme my mind will play on me. The way to do it is quite simple: Just say NO. It's just so bloody hard to say no to yourself.

For those of you that figures this is unique, consider if you haven't had these battles with yourself before.
Did you fall for your own schemes and deceptions or did you stand your ground long enough to get into a routine, where willpower stops to be the focusing factor?

The End?

Why not pick up on last post.

Today being the end of the world. A hot topic is what will you be doing if the world would come to an end tonigth.
Well, personally I'd be doing what I'm already doing. The show must go on and you'll never know how effective the apocalypse will be. Well, once you know it doesn't quite matter now does it.

What i do find amussing is how affected people in general are. From the loonies that builddoomsday bunkers to the loonies spending all their asserts as it won't matter. To the cynics that shakes their heads as a response to the loonies. But more so the public reaction to it.
Appearntly the morningshow have consisted 90% of this. I've noticed the FB and G+ streams to contians quite a bit of this (mostly comics and funny pics). But for some reason everyone around me seems to take it with some uuuh big thing....

Maybe I'm essentially a cynic myself as I really don't care (got better things to do), or maybe it's one of those  how's the weather thing. Surely i find a few of the funny pictures hilarious, at the same level as #caturnday.

Well though of the day. Now I think I'll better get back to the things I really want to finish off ASAP, like writing that mail I've been postponing for 4 days.

Incase I'm wrong and we'll have an apocalyse later on, Best of luck. May the randomness protect you all.

Ramblings of the day.

So, I best not fall back here. So keeping it up.

Don't have much to put in words today.
Been trying to get at #ingress for a while and was prepared to wait until open Beta. but it seems I got lucky, so I'm one of the few invited. And that is something special. I notice loads of people been waiting a month for this, Putting in work hours, like suggesting portals, creating artwork, solving riddles or try to solve them. But alas they are cheated.
I must admit I haven't been shy to vent my frustration over my inability to solve the riddles or even get any headway with them, even if almost presented with the solution. And as a countermeasure I'd been pulling of something that is called a bruteforce attack.

Those of you that don't know what Ingress or Bruteforceattack is:
Ingress is a game google launched November 15th. and it's essentially about capturing/saving the world. It's a game that takes place in the real world, so if you see someone standing close to a cultural monument of sorts, and fiddling with their phone. there's a good chance it's ingress. Try asking them some can be funny.

Bruteforce attack is essentially testing for a pass code.
Say you have a password that is a letter. For me to guess it I would be pretty sure to get it if testing 25 different letters. Just starting with a, b, c.....
Ingress invitation codes are 8 letters, so bruteforcing that would mean I'd test AAAAAAAA, then AAAAAAAB....AAAAAABA, AAAAAABB etc etc. Eventually I'm supposed to hit a correct combination and I'm fairly good at doing a manual task like that until completion.

Maybe people realized that once I'd succeed, I would effectively steal a code from someone else. So giving me a code directly might have been a preventive measure. But I don't really care, I'm in.

Still it puts my hard natured morale compass at work. I know it's not fair for someone. But is it globally fair. The goals justifies the means?
How far should one be willing to damage someone else in order to attain their goals? When does it become unacceptable. What line needs to be cross before it's simply no longer okay to abuse intimate knowledge of the system?

Post redesign

So I've remodeled the blog somewhat, split things into categories of interest. That should make it more easy to  actually land here painlessly:)

As you might notice I don't use pictures and other fancy flashy elements. I use text, and loads of it.
I'll try and keep it down in the future.
Another thing is I tend to poke things that are bugging my mind. Some of these things have been circling in my head for quite a while before I share it with anyone. That makes a lot if my stuff heavy.
I'll try to not dig too deep, but that removes my urge to put anything in text as it's already too light and so on.
Therefore use the comments please, use mail if you don't like being public. I believe I have opened so people can post anonymously, I hate that word. But I understand that sometimes it's prudent not to flash your ID badge when opening your mouth. We all do things we'd rather not, yet don't have the privilege to actually take the battle that comes with disagreement of the establishment.

Also I'll see if i can't get into me more scheduled release plan.
I figure for my project blog and The Eve world a Weekly release is do able, while I might wanna try to get a daily post on the Rambling page. At any rate feel free to comment, I have next to no comments or readers for that matter. I expect that to change over time as long as I simply keep up the consistent posting. So throw me a line, maybe I can improve something and we all like improvements :)
Another thing I'll learn here is to use the saved post system. Which will be a rather interesting experience.
If you didn't know how I write these, and why they are this messy. It's because what i write here is most often from brain to net. I start out having a thread, a point and a context. During my writing I could easily change my mind 2 or 3 times, as the slow speed of typing puts things in a different perspective. Same thing when you have to explain something so humans have a snowballs chance in hell to figure out what I'm saying...
See I'm even doing it right now.

Prober editorial principles would now dictate me to rewrite half of this. Not going to happen.
I've tried it. The result was catastrophically bleak.
What I do seem to have learned is that, now I have some 5 more walls of texts as the one above here, detailing and spinning and going deeper, explaining more and more.

You people don't want me to do that really. You want to tick this post off as "have been read".
I'll try to respect it, and I seem like I need a ending keyword? hmmm. Cool:

1. Daily posts incoming.
2. This is all rambling, Eve and projects have moved.
3. Lighter more reader friendly posts
4. Commentary is needed for improvement, give me input.
5. five point lists are 2 points too many :)

Forgive and forget?

Once more it has been a while. And this time i guess i bring about one of the heavies.
First I feel a need to point out that I'm not in any way religious, yet I am a very spiritual person.

I came across this Love and forgiveness as tools of personal growth while catching up on my stream, and the title stirred something so i started reading. My first realization is that now I know what people mean when they tell me I throw to many words at them without pause :)


To sum up what I get from it:

1. You life is basically set at the age of 6.
2. Parents are especially responsible for their childrens mindset.
3. Setting the correct path makes most thing peachy.
4. Forgiveness is a very strong tool.

I don't completely agree, but I see the point and I even learn from reading it.
First off I had to set aside that it wasn't written with people like me in mind. And that most people are not like me. From there I can raise my mind above it all and look for the good parts that I'd like to pass on to others in search of decent living principles.

Keep in mind there's no "Way of life", each individual perceives the world through a filter that in composed of a multitude of things that have different influence by each individual. Any proficient psychologist would or should know that. Yet it is often a forgotten fact. Maybe you like red meat while I like mine medium done, and both ways are EQUALLY fine.. As there is no set path in life, and tastes are different.

Not too long ago I was presented to a likewise spiritual person from a completely different culture then my own European upbringing. and I believe the first philosophical challenge I presented was why she should be the judge of what is good and bad?

It's a common misunderstanding that if you mean well your actions are benevolent (good in nature). Trouble arises when you start to judge what other should perceive as well being. A classic is the one of helping out...
That is not always the benevolent path as helping might prevent the individual being helped from evolving into to a stronger person.
I figured an old Buddhism story about giving moneys to beggars were in fact seen as a "bad" karma thing, where most other cultures would see it as a "good karma" thing. (Yes, I know that there is nothing such as "good karma" and that all karma is bad, but that is something for time to discuss).

That was somewhat of a sidetrack which I don't think I closed prober, but we can do that some other time. Main point here and the line I'm walking is good and bad is always down to individuals. Besides Cirelda wrote a nice blog that doesn't deserve to be thrown into religious discussions.

Rather I want to point out my disagreements in general (noted in the bullet point):
Your life is set by the age of 6......
I disagree. Somewhat. As she points out herself, once you the an age where you're supposed to be a responsible adult person. You have the responsibility to seek assistance to handle the scars of your soul. Aligning your moral compass, choose your path in life, define your tastes.
And that is really a very important thing. Unless you unquestionably believe in fate in a way they you disregard any and all responsibility. Your first responsibility in this life of yours should be to make the choices you ultimately agree the most with. These don't always show as clearly as you expect. For instance it's a choose to pay the rent. Paying the rent will have the effect that you most likely have a roof over your head until next time the rent is due, likewise you could choose differently and NOT pay the rent which will ultimately have the effect you don't have the roof over you head. Of course there's other effects like if you didn't pay the rent, you most likely have that money to spend for something else, say food?
You always have a choice, whether you like it or not. Either accept this or accept that it is "fate".
And as you have a choice you have the power to do differently. Predictable or not, you ultimately had responsibility and made a choice.

Parents are especially responsible for their children's mindset.
Actually i agree here.
Children will always look to their parents for guidance, and it is our most holy task to provide them the best guidance we can. Again loads of factors are applied here. One of the heaviest factor is most often the parents own upbringing and their reactions to this.
For instance if someone is taught that you should play dead if attacked by a bear. Unless experience, education or some other outside effect have an impact on that persons perspective of bears, this is off course what that person will teach their own children. ( I have no clue what so ever to do if you encounter an angry bear, but I  don't think I'll try reasoning with it....)


Setting the correct path makes most thing peachy.
I've already touched on this. What you as a person yourself might have value in considering is who are the judges of "correct". And do you even like peaches?
Once you start getting a hold of that, start considering the merits of these judges....
Another thing a lot of people most often fail to realize is that there is no person that is enherrently evil/bad. No matter how malicious actions are concieved and performed, there is always at some level a desire for betterment someone. Trouble is when people don't quite agree what is good and bad, like commiting genocide. Good or bad? well depends on perspective really, still trust me those doing it REALLY believe they are doing a good thing, the greater good maybe even. Remember the German soldiers in WW2. Their belts was inscribed with something along the lines of Gods army. And I don't have the merits to be a judge of that.


Forgiveness is a very strong tool.
As the title say forgive and forget. I have children starting school and the default thing most children need to learn is to say I'm sorry........
It's one of my parental challenges to have they learn the diffrence between saying "I'm sorry" and to "be sorry". Most would tell me how wrong I am in this. But i actually take offence to indoctrination. And i believe strongly in truth. Always tell the truth, and only say things that you mean.
So when my children are schooled to blindly say: Forgive me, I'm sorry. Without understanding what they are doing I'm offended.
Sure, on the other end there's another child that is sad because they have just been hurt. This victim migth be apeaced somewhat by being told the harm was unintentionally.
Untill the children realize it was intented.... That they have been lied to.... That they are expected to lie them self quite often even..... (they have to repeat the process of telling: I'm sorry. Plenty times before it becomes a natural response)...
Same thing with forgiveness... I often notice people by default expect forgiveness if they merely ask it.
When i'm encoutering people asking me to forgive them, I usually get rather aggressive, and start digging them why I should forgive them. And that tends to scare people off.
I don't mind forgiving, and I doing quite often and fast. The people I forgive have no value knowing wether they are forgiven or not. I forgive and forget to apeace MY mind and life. Not theirs.
On the other hand some things I don't just forgive, less forget. Often I take a very long time forgiving my self :) And with that knowledge in hand an to round of everything:

When forgiving, and who are you forgiving, and why? Once understood it's lot easier to also forget which is needed inorder to truely forgive, rather then just saying the words without meaning.

Taking ones time.

As those that have been digging out my blog here will know most of my google experience stems from the usage of a Samsung Tabs 2 10.1" Wow a long name... My Slate. I use it for everything that is connected with Android and a lot of things that are based around Google. Like Google Drive (Generic spreadsheets for game logs). Latitude to find specific location of people that needs a ride from somewhere. G+, well if that needs an explanation get with the program. Google Navigation or Maps for GPS navigation (I usually have no idea of where anything is). And Turf for a but of fun. It's a GPS capture the flag game via android. "Turf", look it up, it's fun.

Something I had an initial idea would be great to use the Slate for was this:
Blogging, but it's not. In general it's just a huge mobile phone and the keyboard vs Blogger aren't quite working to a level that it's usable, unless you do the default 5 lines -> Publish -> Twitter -> expose, expose expose. And if you'd been reading just one of my post you'd know I'm not going there, even though I don't do much editorial on them.

And as usual 'm taking my time to underline the premise of my points.
I've finally found out what the Blogloving thing that keeps popping up every is.
It's basically a Blog Twitter.
I see the point in using it, considering SOE and stuff like that. But I don't Blog with SOE in mind.
I blog to put my mind on paper. It's nice that my thinking is shared, but frankly my mind isn't for everyone, and some might even get hurt. So keeping it relatively low key here.

Of course I have a desire to discuss what I put to file, yet I also understand very few people even comprehend my logic, even fewer catch my everlasting underlines. So I've grown natural to the concept that this is one way communication, if even that much.

Now stuff like Blogloving and Twitter, as said I understand the basic working of it. What I don't understand is why people bother. Using tools like this leaves you in a state where you'll always be the last to know. Unless you're the creator. It leaves no time for reflexion, you just press on.
And as much as I endorse such attitude of persistence, I always fail to see the end goal. The larger picture, where is it, that people are going?

I'm still amazed of the pace I see people having these days, until I realize the pace is reached by disregarding the past.
But that's my conclusions, what are yours?

Reflexions on the attitude of current people

It's been a while since last as I've had less time actively online. I'll see if I can remedy that.

Yesterday I got the inspiration for this, and I'll try something new.
I already have a point to make : I'm seeing greedy, give me more styles people everywhere with little or no will to earn their keep.
I find it to be a global problem of the current generations.
I think I'm different.
And I have of cause the rigth thinking anybody just need to eliminate this issue. :)

This is my pretext and soon I'll start hitting the keys and throw one random though after the other to explain, clarify, justify etc. why exactly the way I think is the only rigth way.
With a hint of irony people actually knowing me, would also know that I'm merely complaining, pointing and hope someone would benefit from what I consider clear vision, yet no necessary something that should be adopted.

Hmmm maybe my constant ambivalent attitude for all esthetic concepts, sorry I'm a Libra.

On with the show shall we:

For the past 10 years roughly I've been a very integrated part of a local community thing, basically it started as a net cafe back when people went to places like that to play video games, simply course having a gaming rig at home was not for everyone. It was just before that shifted and the price for PC went down far enough for people to start acquire them, getting Internet connections at home and so forth. With that trend on the move the business model in it wasn't good, and putting personal wages on the expense list simply wasn't an option. The cafe was in danger of closing for this reason. But instead the owner decided to offer the whole setup as a volunteer project. We had the equipment, the software and the clients were steady and helpful engaging people.
Soon it's opening hours were in the afternoon / evening with volunteers overseeing the administrative part of unlocking the machines for usage and stuff. Thing we were some 10 people putting in oversight hours and the former owner being chairman of it putting in some 50 hours a week. Off this of pure passion. I was there from the start being the accountant, meaning i have the past 10 years of financial records. We had some 500 member using it. After a few years the bookkeeper stopped and I was appointed that task on my own admission. Loads of stuff I was always trying to make the Bookkeeper understand, like for instance the benefit of having the financial records on Excel sheets rather then in analogue ledger books and using paper notes for all and every transaction. Being the bookkeeper I made it so. This spring I passed the torch. Been meaning to do so for a long time, the job was easy after I've made most things rather automatic, and we got sponsored by the local munity with housings and utilities.
Over the years the engagement have slowly deteriorated to the point that currently I know of only 10-20 confirmed members, 7 being needed for the management that enables the setup to work in the first place.
Being a gaming centric thing we draw in young people, many of those have grown up, hell even I've grown older with multiple kids of my own. Which is why I'm slowly exiting the setup and passing on the torch.
The chairman kept putting in the hours, even increasing them, with passion and vigilance (he's in the 60's now), and the price has finally caugth up with him and he's not even part of the setup today.

All the time the Idea was to have the young people enter the management part of the setup to ensure it's legacy, and there's more to it then just playing some video games. It's always been a place open to anyone, embraceing anyone.... See why we got local sponsorship?
But the youth never really entered management, that part was taken care of by current management so why bother. This spring we were down to the Chairman, I and 1-2 others still actively keeping things aloft, The chairman had to drop his role as the workload and engagement was ruining him and had been for quite a while. I wanted to stop s I was never there anymore, focusing on raising my own kids rather then raising other (I'm one of those people that needs 18-20 hours a day to complete the daily list of things I want done, and it's not enough). So currently the management is comprised of the youth using the setup, or what's left of it. They are actually even only doing it under threats that is they don't it's close down.
So considering they are young and new to it all, nothing has happen to the setup, and it keeps declining, and it's currently dangerously close to lose sponsorship due to lack of engagement.
Since the start of this setup I've been part of it on the sideline, offering help and advise, but not being willing to do things, simply under the idea that "I won't stay around and you need to learn..."
I spend my Wednesday simply being available for them, most often I just sit at watch YouTube, as there are no one to help or anyone that wants help. Also the setup needs regular announced opening hours or lose sponsorship. The fact I'm present solves this issue for now.

Okay that was a very long background explanation to something else: No one want to pull their load!
This attitude I seem to encounter with many of the younger generation?
Someone will provide for me.          Erhhh no!
If you want something done, let someone else do it?     Erhh, no!

What happened to: I want to carve out my own place in life, and I will eat dust if that's what it takes.

I grew up in a time when things started to move from Though luck. -> That's too bad, we need to help this poor fellow.

It's been a very long time since I've talked to anyone declining alms, under the idea that they wanted to make their own.

I'm told my ideology surrounding this is stupid. Why decline help if you could benefit. When i start explaining I want to prove that I can do, and I can pull my own load. I get this baffled look. People shake their heads and call me stupid.
Sure it's stupid, it's a principle. Show me one principle that isn't stupid once pressed to the edge. But isn't that the very nature of a principle.

See this is where I starting thinking out loud:
So if principles by nature are stupid act, that are justified by higher means for serving a higher purpose. What higher purposes are people in general driving at? Where are they heading?
Guess I have moral discuessing too rarely :)
This is actually something I'd really like to know, so please, put in a few comments about your principles and especially your "higher purpose". I promise I won't judge, much.
But I from current memory can't put a finger on anyone having a set course towards a higher purpose, starting this thing most youngers don't have any. Well besides greed.
Yes sorry, that's one of my troubles with the times, greedy people. No one ever have enough, they always want more, simply to get more. Very few people will adhere to being content with current state of living.
I won't get into that today.

My starting point was: I'm seeing greedy, give me more styles people everywhere with little or no will to earn their keep.

I didn't make that point very well now did I?
I'll do that in short then: Ask around who'd decline alms/charity/sponsor with no attachment other then the label that they are getting it. Add to it, do they need it (of cause), and why? Do you agree?

Asking around, I'm sure you'll come to the same conclusion:

I find it to be a global problem of the current generations.

I think I'm different.
Of course I am, who isn't. Best question would be, are you different?

And I have of cause the rigth thinking anybody needs to eliminate this issue. :)
Of cause I do, question is what other issues thinking as I do would raise. The principle of Do or Die actually means someone will die... I won't tell anyone if that's a good or bad thing, but it's fact.

Consolidate damn it.

So it's summer time and I've been somewhat busy doing nothing.

The result of that is that I drop out loads of information streams and I have plenty trouble just keeping up.
It brings into focus one of the reasons I've grown tired and bored of Facebook and basically is just waiting to delete it.

To me the discovery and G+ was a one of the Hey, I've been looking for exactly this thing. Then I threw myself into it with the usual blind vigor that this type of media intuitively set upon you.

Setting out I had few to no one to follow, and the interest of their postings were marginally of interest. but you got to load the stream, don't you?

As mentioned before I'm using an Samsung tablet for mobility namely navigation, and I love the concept of Google Latitude. Setting that up a Google account was needed and with that you're suddenly got Calendar, Gmail, G+, Blogger, YouTube, ?Drive?, play, Picasa and personalized searches.

Setting out here provides me with something I haven't had for quite a while: A clean slate. Trouble with that is that it's clean. Having a relative need to be seen that state doesn't last for long. So quickly I start filling up with general public stuff i like to watch but have little to need on interacting with, the "Entertain me" path. That is already in a place where I actually should start uncircling some, or at least start to sort it better. Caturnday is funny, but when you see nothing but cute cats, they grow tiresome rather then funny.

Actually this would be a cry for help I guess, having issues and trouble defining precisely what I like and where i want to go. Sure I have interests, most notoriously would be my passion for anthropology (Study of human, and social interactions and it's effect on it's environment).
Of note I personally involve in Eve-online which would be somewhat the top experiment on that. (It being a video game and entertainment in itself helps a lot)

Putting my interest this precise should or would help in finding points of interactive interest, rigth?
No, in fact it just makes everything harder.
Knowing precisely what I like to spend time doing, puts in contrast precisely what I don't want to spend time doing.

An example to illustrate clearly:
The minefield of Religion....
I like discussing religion, and minor details of it, what ever religion that may be.
I'm not a religious person, and I never will be. I will accept I'm wrong from time to time.
I will never accept salvation in acknowledgement that I'm wrong, or blindly accept being wrong (or right).

Religious debaters tends to be going in the extremes and that's where I stop following. When people them self stop processing the information they are given. It's one of the things i don't like in humans.




And now see what happened. I opened my mind and all direction is lost. And that is my main problem with virtually everything. I need stuff consolidated. Boxed and labeled would be nice too. It wouldn't work, but the labels would help.

With Google latitude, G+, Blogger being 3 different spheres of interaction I need to clean it up. Set up the circle structure. Figure out how publish to folks without circling them, or maybe I need to circle them to label them correctly...

"Moar work"

Cited from Peon 7, Warcraft 3


Well it's summertime, now probably isn't the rigth time to figure this out.
Anyway, if you have advise on the usage of Circles, don't hesitate to share it, yet as with any religion I might not agree with you insights, but I'll give it considerable thoughts.

Something off the hat

It's been a while, so I'll just draw something off the mind, see where I end up..


Well, actually it's been a quite interesting couple of weeks with stuff going on everywhere.
As I pick stuff up I take note of my usual bane "NemId" and my settling with the freebie project.

So a quick update on the freebie project is that things doesn't quite change. I ended up running a series of Amarr missions with Theology Counsil finishing off with the usual Faction mission and to my bitter realization I notice that the counter being Brutor Tribe is located some 30 jumps away. so that's some 25 jumps from HQ. I've dragged my sorry arse there and prepare to start em up tonight. but that Amarr / Minmatar relation really is the drag to deal with. Giving it a month or 2, plus I don't think I'll take much heart in the offset with that distance. I'll hang around there for a while.
The Covetor training has essentially completed so back to drake training. I'm told that the Golem should be my goal and I'm already aligning for it with the torp + shield rather then drone + armor.
I'¨ll figure it out. Still L1 agents with my poor standings, and I won't be able to handle much more then L2, maybe easy L3 so this is the long haul and it won't bring the isk. Lucky my mining buddies are atoned to the challenge and keep the Plex income stable.

My bane "NemId"....
It's getting more and more interesting as the days go by.
I have little to no doubt in the end result, what intrest me more is when people realise what's going on and the effects it has on them for the future.
Sorry to do this to anyone, but I'll outline the setup to help anyone join the prober page. Think I better do that in sections:

Privacy?
I found recently that the proposed fix to keep control of the PSK with the setup has been not just delayed but will infact eventually be completely dropped + it will not co-exist with current banking system.
This is my main concern, and have always been so and the thing that holds me off, and let me explain to those that have no idea what PSK is.. PSK stands for Private Shared Key or Pre Shared Key. the importent aspects being the words "Shared Key".
To understand how encryption and privacy works, one must start by understanding the reason for "Keys" and what they are...
And that's not easy... okay any encryption expect would kill me for this still it'll make things more simple to understand...

You have a house of some sort. There's an entrance, with a lock...
 There's restricted access to the house..Let's asume you always lock the door :)
So who should have access and how do you make sure only certain people have access?
The first thing you do is you make keys for the lock.
You know default keys with he teeth?
Right. you then saw off the section with teeth and each person that needs to unlock the door is given a set of key teeth.
One set of teeth per user, and we must assume there is no way to copy them (that would be very technical and I don't even understand it myself, sooo).
The other part of the key you hang on the wall by the door. For everyone to use.

Now access to your house happens by someone bringing a set of keyteeth, use the Keyholder and unlock the door to enter.
That's weird and strange way to explain PSK, but it makes a point to those that doesn't know what it is.

Now the "NemId" model is called a PSK and used as a PSK too, but there's a little difference to the design:
When you want to enter your house you go the door, press the doorbell, and at a side window a guy will show up asking you for a name and password. If he is satisfied with your answer you are handed the key to the door, you unlock it, and give him back the key.

All in all it's okay, you get to enter your house. You can get help if need be, there's a guy at the window to ask if you fail to insert your key into the lock on the door. And access is restricted.

There's a few problems with it also:
How can you be sure that the guy doesn't enter your house and mess up things while you're out?
How can you be sure that the guy only hands out your key to you, and not your kids?

No big issue for most people until you suddenly become responsible for what's going on in your house.

I best cut this short, I'm starting to expand too much. I can always bring up other issues some other day.

I'll toy about more with the above analogy, and please provide some feedback to the problems I love to see the issue from more directions...

Anyway, so the guy that has your key, could potentially go to your house and set up a Pirate bay server somewhere you don't see it.
Sure he's not aloud to do so, and he will be fired if someone finds out he's done it. But he can still do it.
With current setup the legal approach on it ignores the fact that the key isn't personal and private, so in legal terms "anyone" using the key is YOU!
Therefore YOU! must have been the one setting up the Pirate Bay server.
Disclaimer: (I don't know the illegal file sharing stuff anymore, so let's assume a Piratebay server is illegal and punishable by fine and imprisonment)

The use of the key is proof itself that it is being used by you, as no-one can legally do so. This idea becomes very interesting when it's common knowledge. As I've told loads of people in on forums and in private. I'm walking around waiting to see this thing backfire on itself. thus far no one has been caught in the system and gone to court with it, and they are the only ones able to make a difference. on that mental state. It's like the funny notation that social security numbers are secret and thus only you have access to your social security number. You don't have to think long to point at someone else being able to have a copy of it. and when someone other then you have access to something is it then still your secret thing? Do you have any control of who knows it really? Is it private? Or how private is it really?

I'm rambling on while I shouldn't.... Please bring a comment on your privacy concerns or lack off.
You don't need to be concerned to have an opinion.

I need this!!!!

I've just been encouraged to throw a though on one of the few things I really take to heart.
The decay of humanity. Uhhh sounds gloom. Yes, I'll be nagging a bit. Deal with it, contemplate over it. Or confirm my disgust in the human race.

I'd still call my self relatively new to the G+ thing, combined with blogger, and all the other great interacting tools, so I'm still learning the ropes.
One thing I take from the great vast Internet, or world in general is eavesdropping. I've always been the guy in the corner listing in on other peoples huge life issues. Over the years the nature of the problems have changed, and then again they haven't. But my ability to shut up has improved. Life is often less complicated when you shut up.

Blogging is to me actually a 2 way process. I post therefore I am. I follow and read other, because I take interest and care. My blogs are windows to my soul, purple some would say, others call it insane or just plain weird. I've come to terms with the fact that I'm essentially not "normal" and I don't really want to be "normal". It's too dull :)

okay, this a long self explanatory introduction to the thing I'm actually writing about: The shallowness of our age.

I'm a nerd, and I'm proud of it. (there's a difference between nerds and geeks).
A lot of my interests are geekish in nature, but well most often the geek culture stuff have more content to provide. More in depth materials. And that's from what I understand the nature of Nerds, they dig out and relish every miniature detail to something utterly irrelevant.

I've been following a few blogs of teenager, and been looking for interesting blogs to read. Mostly I see 500 Teenager blogs doing an "instagram/twitter" show, some for years, but most for less. If I'm lucky I find one with talent, worth my time.
The trend is easy to spot, and once you start spotting it. Things starts to look rather grim.

I first noticed it with movies...
Remember I'm old age Nerd terms, just keep that in mind.
Age old mainstream discussion, which is better and why:
New hope VS. Return of the Jedi

Personally I don't have a favorite, but I'm always open to discuss the qualities of each.
Later this happened:
Star wars Wiki page (notice diagram in bottom)
With Phantom menace releasing everybody suddenly was a Star Wars expert. Yet today few consider episode 1-3 real Star Wars.
Again I won't take sides here, but I understand where they are coming from. Star Wars was an epic movie in it's own, and the history and epicness of it yielded loads of background materials. Even before the Menace there was role playing games, short stories and books. Don't start me on all the merchandise, course that's part of the problem.
With Menace everything was redesigned, and republished. Those with love for the culture embraced it at first. Until they started realising, there actually wasn't coming new content, just reiterations of old content, and people gulped it up.
Did you know "The force" is religion in Australia. Some people actually have taken the culture to a point where they base a religion on the mindset of a fiction writer.

Of course he's rather rich now...

Now, what does this have to do with teenagers today?
I can't have my eyes open 1 hour without spotting some form of "message" that I need this exact product. I rarely remember the product. But from time to time I acquire the product, use it and judge it. I rarely find something that works as advertised, and thusly I mostly acquire stuff that isn't advertised.
I don't press the like button unless I mean it. etc etc.
And yes i have a facebook account I haven't quite seen for a long time. Frankly since Timeline was introduced, yet timeline was not what drowe me away, it just made the final drop.

I find my blogs via Facebook, or tried to. There was quite a few groups of promising bloggers. But the way they get readers are the default modern day marketing trick tactics: You spam.
Most of my active life consists of spam. It's very visual, and people react to it. But it's still spam.
People knowing my eating habits, would know that I wouldn't mind eating spam (locally known as Jakabov), I'll even prepare and cook it, but if hungry enough. I'll just eat it.
People often find it disgusting. But really, is it much different from what they do with their minds?

With the current generation I notice an overflow where the state of mind is that you are what other people tell you that you are. This holds true most of the time, when people are honest.

Trouble gets worse when your environment gets spammed with material content.
Getting back to movies, I've seen few movies worth watching the past decade, I know I can count all of them with 2 hands. But I've seen loads of worthless flashy junk.
It's blink, it's what the masses want. Did you watch Men In Black, great movie ;) Remember the scene, where Will need to choose to join up or walk away, red pill/blue pill? Watch the movie again and take a minute and think about it.


okay, as usual I seem to have wondered off in some 10 million directions without getting any closer to putting my initial thoughts into writings, and with my loathing of backspace/delete, we now have quite  a text, no one will read to the end.

Bottom line is as always, it's not the clothing you wear, it's how you wear it. And not everyone are ready to meet you, it takes time. Assuming YOU are still yourself by then. Just be yourself and own your choices. They are always yours to make.

I should twitter more :)
If you actually read this to the end, leave a comment. Could be fun to see if anyone actually gets to the end, and more so, who......
Ohh don't worry, I'll iterate some other day when i have more focused mindset.
Ha ha, and looking at the title I see the anchor is missing, here you go, and understand I best be getting this sorted:

Passion

I often at some point seem to write this down.

While currently writting I start wondering why I keep doing it. Maybe it's my way of telling the world better who and what I am, without even knowing it myself. At any rate thinking about it doesn't change it.

This is kind of a prelude to my coming "I want to be a Spacemarine when I grow up" entry I'll get around to sometime.

I'm a libra. According to astrology I'm a passionate person, and I must say it hold true. I have passion, and I have it in drowes to the point I excrete it.

I've been picking up a few blogs on blogger now that seems to be interesting pass times to dive into, and I see a common trade I seem unable to note in them and it's the Force of passion I so love.

Coming with a background philosofy of Bushido, I keep missing the followthru. I tend to me mostly attracted to force and the show of force, it being subtle or sensible. It's hard to explain in words as it's more a sense of feeling then it's an expresion.
For instance picking up one of my beloved tunes: Evanescene - Bring me to Life

I love the tune from it expresion of force, the tune itself by itself is actually rather simplistic and boring.
As we're talking in tunes, same thing happens with many more hardcore bands, an example could be Rammstein: Rammstein - Ich will

Listening to stuff like this completely immersed in the sensation of rhythmic sensation, following an emotion of determination. Completely ground you'll feel an urge to stand fast or react with forcefull intend. And here I find my understanding of Bushido.

For those unaware of what Bushido covers, I'm no expert but speaking from my own views, it's an ancient strategy code. Compare it to Tsu Sun teaching. Bushido was written in medieval Japan, by a samurai that shall we see had seen the light. He was succesfull and lived long enough to put his perspectives into writing.
The main principle is any action or reaction should be done in one single fluid motion. Stopping to think about it halfway through hampers you.

Reading this while writing and with my IT background and experience with projects of that sort, it makes no sense at all. As if you blindly implement a design without refactoring the design once in a while the end product will most often be bad.
Writing this I then again understand why Bushido works. You shouldn't implement a faulty design to begin with, and any implementation you start should be finished, closed and delivered. Before you start redesigning / refactoring. Complete your actions.

It's like if you fall off a cliff you have options... You can start screaming until you hit the ground... Not very effective, but you'll be noticed by everyone not in the same state.
Alternatively you can start falling and prepare yourself for the impact on the ground, and starting doing whatever you can for this impact to have the best possible outcome available to you.

If that was a cartoon, one would splatter all over the page, the other would make a crater, slowly rising to take on the next challenge. Which cartoon would you like to assosiate with?

And now I wonder how the frag I ended up here, as this wasn't quite the direction or conclusions I were putting into text.

A few tidbits of my brain, just so there's some form of reasoning to the title, and what I failed to put in text:
Passion isn't equal love. you can both hate and love with the same passion.

If you want me to better finish this on the rigth track, throw me your version of passion. Pictures are good:

Always needing a few more buck...

So the paycheck finally arrived. Now new problem arises
1. I want a dataslate.
2. I need to pay subscription costs for Eve.
3. I got a backlash from utillity bills, making it factor 3.

This is in the order of what I want, rather then what I need.
Of course I need to pay the backlash payment on the utility bill, secondly I need to pay subscriptions for my Eve (2 mains) and what's leftover I can play with.

The operation is relatively simple: I have let's say 10.000, using clean numbers with no reference to reality, as I'm uncomfortable putting that online. 10 grand is a nice round number...

So working backwards, the Utility bills are little less then 6k, the Eve subscription is roughly 1k (x2) and a dataslate would be roughly 3500-4000. Summing up= 11,5-12 K and continuing: 11,5-12k > 10k = I don't get a Slate....

Okay, I whine, therefore I am???
Not really, so, what to do...
The Utility is non negotiable, it's 6k,- that's it. Everything else we can shuffle around.
First step: Eve.... 2k for 2x1 years... Well we're in June now, so maybe we can cut that back. Coupled with the Freebie Project, maybe I can cut it even more. But how much. Going to do a long shot and do it at half price = 1k for 2x 6months??
It's a bit of a gamble as fund will not flow until next year again for sure..
Then the slate?
I've tested and tried the Samsung Galaxy 10.1, and the Samsung Galaxy 5(WIFI) and I like them. Last week it took a price jumps + the Tab 2 is on sale, but it's still 3,5k I need to push it down to 3k.
That means waiting...

Things that spring to mind while you sit there:
I want the data slate as it's an android platform that works well with Google Maps, latitude and navigation.
Now I see something called ChomeOS, and I rather want the ChomeOS tablet 10.1. Yet I know nothing about it or whether I can even use it. But I bet it's cheaper. Also I'm sure it's more directly connected then Android.
In the end I'll just have to wait and see where things drop off.

I don't like hanging myself in the Freebie project path, but "working" a few hours each day, should be enough to carry both Maxx Loproc and other toons, but I'm most scared I might need outside help.

What I hate the most is having to stand idle and wait for things to happen. Things I can't really control, but i keep thinking I can.
While at it, hoping to win the lottery doesn't make things worse. Would be a nice addition in the project of removing economical dependencies....

The wonders of children

If you didn't know I have a couple of kids. 3 in fact. And as with any other emotional touchy feely stuff, they might not have drawn the best straw getting a father. But such is life.

Still I do my best to provide as any parent would do, but my quirks of course raise issues that I don't see that many other places. First off, I've realized along the line somewhere that good parenting wasn't so much about being liked, but rather guiding and leaving a decent product in the end: Grown decent human beings. Thus far I seem to succeed, be that to their mother saving them from my insanity or just the fact children er resilient I have no comments.
At any rate, I'm a nerd. And proud of it. It's that simple. It would seem that my Oldest daughter now almost 9 years, 8,5 something, 9 at the end of august, mkay... Being my firstborn and thusly being the prime subject of my strange views on existence when looking for guidance in the worlds have become a nerd too. Whether that's genetics of heritage you can debate for hours with no results, but the fact is that she's a nerd too.

She shows some funny trades, ohh keep in mind that my Dwarflike single minded stubbornness and skills for debating she have too. This results in facts like no is merely someone that hasn't yet seen the reasons and meaning of things and must thusly be shown the light. Most often used word in our household is "Why?". Authorities, well they are there, but maybe I'm smarter then they are. This trade is common I believe and course of much trouble in danish households these days, so nothing special there. Yet she doesn't have a ground moral compass as to what is basically right and wrong, and is mostly ruled by her logic. As foul language for instance is not something understood, so there's language... she uses the language and word used around her, and there's no filter to this. Again you try explaining why censoring is good without making exceptions...

Anyway, i started this text from an experience I had yesterday sitting on the couch feeding the smallest and focusing on that, while she and her little brother started debating something and I took a listen to the details. He's 5, going on 6, He'll be 6 by September... And he also shows the sign of not merely accepting the first explanation if it doesn't co-exists with his perception of the world. They are called Lucien, and Akita.

Anyway I noticed they were discussing relative sizes, how they got that started beats me, but Akita was starting to explain to Lucien how the sun was way bigger then both the earth and the moon, to the size that he could fit 1.000 earths into the sun. The debate come to think of it had to do with sun burns and summer temperatures. And the details aren't really important. what stoke my attention was the fact she was starting to describe and illustrate the Earth evolves around Sun, with moon revolving the Earth, and every one of them spinning.
You might have been exposed to this somehow, somewhere else with Oranges, strings, sticks, apples and spinning devises. From what I know this setup is presented children in the age 12'ish and that seems consistent with around 10 year olds being able to sense abstractly. But she's 8,5. Now if someone had set up a rig like it for her to watch I wouldn't have cared, she'd just memorized the rig. But she hasn't. I expect she's picked it up from a book I noticed her reading a few weeks ago. Still going from a text to actually understanding and conceptualize abstracts like that takes me a bit on a surprise. Guess I'll have to ramp up geometric shapes and structures soon...


But that's just one thing striking me. Another thing is: taking a step back and watching it from a 3rd. person perspective both of them are rather nerdish. The way to read, memorize and use facts either picked up watching Disney Channel, reading fact books, asking teachers or others. They pick up facts like this and sets them as universal truths. Don't get me wrong, they aren't savants or anything, in fact they are merely ordinary kids, it's just the way they pick up knowledge that's fascinating. They do it literally. And well not all their logic is sound, for instance: Santa doesn't actually live next door to grandma, nor do I actually put the sun at the sky every morning. Innocent beliefs that'll be replaced in time, yet it's the way they understand the world and its logic.

I can't say I'm all innocent in the effect though and frankly I need a bit of help this summer:
In the schools among the kids today there's hobby with Soccer cards, and they collect those from age 6, kinder garden classes and up with obsessive behaviours. This weekend Lucien was exposed to this and naturally the hype got hold of him, and as any drug dealer he was offered a couple of cards.
From his perspective, it's cards with soccer players on them, and he knows nothing or relatively little about soccer. The fact there's clubs like Barcelona FC or what ever else there s is obvious to him. This is something I'm sure given the chance someone will teach him, and the corruption starts now.
So I'm going to throw a counter to that:
The main objective in the collection is to get the kids to buy more card to get the full team, following the real life clubs team setups, with transfers shirt changes and so forth. This is a common market trick and the kids are easy targets once hooked. Now how to unhook....
He doesn't know much about football, which good, so that's not going to drive him. He loves Transformers, star wars and stuff like that.
The main point in the activity is to compare collections to have the most complete collection of cards.
Bringing him a card collection that no one else have would eliminate the competitive element of it all, and getting a relatively complete collection (1 season is a collection. Season 1-10 is a collection of collections) would make it a fix expense and should last a few years.
So been looking for it, but haven't found SW which is mercantile enough to threaten the exclusive component, to Transformers. Of course all the Bacucan, Beyblade, Pokemon etc are options, but still needing to retain the exclusive and completeness illusions to ward of the soccer corruption.

Any suggestions would be appreciated.

Insuing insanity

I was meaning to write in danish. I failed. Danish political fumblings in this awareness blog.

So the time finally came. My digital signature expired. I've known this would happen for 2 years now, and have had inklings as of it's effect. Ironically this happens on the days L160 enters it's last step to completion.

And for those of you not knowing L160, it's basically the law which dictates every danish person either accepts the NemID OCES terms of service\use or be a criminal. To cite one of my news medias.

For those that doesn't know what I'm talking about, let me line it up as simple as I can:

In Denmark the financial sector have created a company to handle digital identities. This started some 10 years ago with net banking not wanting to accept the official certificate solution which was a bit tricky to get running.

So they've created their own solution hand lobbied the Government into using the same scheme to enroll everyone into the digital age.

2 years ago they presented and launch then basically Single Sign On credentials under idea that it was a "digital Signature" meaning you and only you would have access to it. Oversimplifying it the rouse took good hold of the populace, piled onto it was the fact that all online banking required the use of the NemID.

In this day and age, few people can live without net banking a few have tried, and precious few resists. So of a populace of 5,5 million people was issues a NemID by the end of 2011.

Now for the funny part. the NemID credentials are owned, used and managed by this DanID firm, which is a private firm working for the Financial sector. Pretty much as a workers union, but for banks.

Yet with a simple check box, you agree by binding contract that NemID is as legally binding as well your passport, and can be used thusly in all danish government matters. It's infallible, so if anything is wrong, you are carring the risk and would be liable for the damages.

Thus far you can avoid the government part and use the ID for Banking purposes alone, thusly holding a barrier between the finacial sector and your government records, say insurrance companies will still have to ask permission to read your health records, and even inform you if they do. You do that by not aquiring both the NemID and activating the OCES certificate for it.

Currently the treasury minister is passing a law dictating that all goverment information is to be provided via digital means, and specificly via something called "E-Boks". This is rather convinient, if it was not for one simple fact. "E-Boks" is a privately owned company, and you have no claims on the information they store on your behalf. Also the only access to that system is via the NemID OCES or digital signatur OCES (the old PKI solution). Also mind you there's not the love option to withdraw your agreement with these firms....

Now to be fair within the law there's rules for exceptions. And these exceptions are claimed by showing up at the local municipality office and claim the rigth. Within the law there's indications as criteria you should fulfill to claim exception. Ohh, if you claim exception falsely you're guilty of fraud and can be sentenced to 4 years of jail... But the general understanding is that you can claim exception but you're are not suppose to and will be punished accordingly for it (when time permits).

So what the frag does all that have to do with me specifically.. Yea, as I mentioned from the start my original OCES certificate expired this Monday, thus I can't renew it and my only option to regain a such would be by accepting the terms of usage given by DanID. And I don't want to do that. So do I need one?

Well besides the inconvenience that I can not report taxes, sign my kids up for school or daycare. I can't interact much with governmental issues. But "E-Boks"....

In theory anything could be sent to be in that web mail and I'd be legally responsible for reading and acting upon it's constant. This is no matter if I have access or not. And for this I only have one option (get a NemID OCES).

As I keep telling people the coming years will be rather interesting times, things are actually going for the worse moving along a self destructive path. At some point the barriers of sanity will be broken and the times after that will be radically different then the day and age of today. Interesting indeed.

Further immergence into the Google world (Hardware)

So this was supposed to be written on a more mobile device and the thing that thus far has caugth my eye would be the Samsung Galaxy.

I'm starting to see the need for having a pad thing of sorts around. not only for the purpose of recreation. But knowing the inner workings and being familiar with them gives some nice pointers in the directions we're heading on the hardware side. Sure a PC will always be a PC, yet I notice that more and more see the benefit in getting a small desktop rather then a Laptop for the purpose of gaming, and the more work oriented free floaters are starting to settle with a laptop they like for office work. The rest are the gamers, casual floaters and kids. all these would naturally pick up a pad of sorts rather then messing about with a heavy laptop waiting for it to boot, or actually pick up a heavy slaptop.
Personally I've switched the slaptop with a desktop (SFF), considering that my gaming/art machine would need rather costly upgrades in order to last for very long. I'd like at least 5 years on my current system, and I can have that with various upgrades that i can built into a desktop but a slaptop would have to be purchased finalized, making it heavy and rather costly. But a desktop is slow not portable and cumbersome. Plus the system doesn't facilitate stuff like this very well.
You know once you finally settle in front of the screens you start getting into business and then all the fun stuff tends to fade and you never get around to it.
Same with all the creative stuff, you're never have a good option for putting down your thinking when you need to.
The solution in my case is the pad.

Now getting an Ipad seemed like a good idea 2 years ago. Today others have entered the marked. And frankly Android is more to my personal tastes of freedom of choice. so what's out there?
I've found the Samsung Galaxy as a potential option. Especially with my new found social portal that is my google account, which works nicely with Android.
So I'm currently running a test to see if the darned device meets my needs, and uhh am I needy :)

Using Latitude on a constant basis (trying that with BB is a fail), launching my self into Wikitude was also a fail, but where do you else get good AR?
At any rate I've borrowed a Samsung Galaxy S now, and first issue I get is the missing networkability. Sure it connects via WIFI, but I need more. Plus I was thinking of pad size. Never the less I like it thus far, the setting up is of course an ongoing process. I've got the better deal of my applications installed (Eve-radio, Aura, Facebook plus chat "fails", Latitude, Blogger "fails" and G+ "fails").
All in all I'm okay with the current failures to perform from some of the applications, and funny enough it's the vital ones. The battery time takes roughly 2-3 hours of Radio streaming or rather 2-3 hours of active usage. That means I'll need it pretty much power plugged, such is okay for the most part means I'll just always be seeking a power outlet where ever I settle on a location. And I kinda expect the same performance from the Pad version (I've noticed and picked the Samsung Galaxy 10.1).
Then what about usage? Well, drag n' drop works fine and intuitively. the keyboard took me a while to settle with. But 2 finger system and it works nicely, slowly compared to a standard keyboard, but I'm still faster on 2 fingers then 50% of my surroundings, so it'll be manageable. Down side is my big fingers, can't hit the keys on the small screen when it's upright, and horizontal removes the view area = I can't see what I'm doing. And if you've been reading any of my ramblings you'd know very well why that's a critical issue.
I expect the Pad to be bigger and thus will solve that issues....

Last 2 parts to deal with would then be finances ;)
Having the need for connectivity I'll need a mobile connection. In DK that's a nightmare. Spend in total some 9 hours reading terms and prices and lastly I found a page where they actually tested the lines.
As anyone knowing me would know, Speed is nice, but stable is way better.
Going through the price lists what I found was:

1. High Speed for 200 MB/month, cutting to 0,25/0,25 megabits pr. second for 29,-
2. High speed for 500 MB/month, cutting to 0,25/0,25 megabits pr. second for 39,-
3. High speed for 1000 MB for 49.

I'm still not sure the first cut data rate is true, but it's what I can find.
Now 29,- pr month is a lot cheaper then both 39 and 49. The 49,- is around my data transfer needs, but there's no credit limit so I could end up using it 5 times in one month = 250,- So remove from line up.
That leaves 200 for 29 or 500 for 39. I know I use a little under 500 MB/ month on a regular use pattern, so I'd always be a cut speeds with the cheap model, but stable lines rather then speed and I'd manage. Plus the writing in small types that you'll get extra services, like a web mail, Free usage of music and a few more like that, seems tempting...
Finally I found the that review site, and albeit the reviews were of older date (3-6 months) I frankly think I'll settle with 500 for 39. Seemed that the cheaper wasn't able to actually deliver in the tests, and well that'll mean unstable connections and I hate that. Also it didn't help much that the most support from the 200  for 29 site I recieved thus far is the customers asking simple innocent questions for help, getting none (infact most of their issues seems to be network issues they can't do anything about) and when ever a customer care person shows up they just made things worse with promises that they couldn't keep or with suggestions to buy additional products meaning the 29 would quickly end up as 29 + something more + services plus something more, still with the looming prospect of unstable connections. By the way 29,- ddk is something like 5 US dollars or 4 Euro or 3 Pound Sterling.

In my worse judgements I'm still giving them a chance, I really don't know why and I should. My history with them has actually ended in a solemn oath never to return to their infrastructure if avoidable...... Seems something of a statement of bitter judgemental folks...... Yet all of my being screams at me. Yet the promise of extra services seems so appealing. Frak I hate that sales technique.

Ohh I wanted to put in some images of the current device, but my camera FUBAR'ed on me.
Instead let's use Google.
Test device Samsung Galaxy S : Google image search   Page at Samsung UK
Target device Samsung Galaxy 10.1: Google image search  Samsung site (UK)

I suppose I've been rambling along for far more then you wanted to read, so I'll cut it here.

Privacy settings, what do you mean by that?

So it's time to write up one of those thinking out loud posts, was thinking of writing futher about the Freebi project, but there's more to my rambling then a simple project.

Now I've been hanging on here for a few days or weeks, guided here by the fantastic marketing principles that are coming from Google. At first all i need, and still need is a navigation application for my Blackberry. Being the Nokia guy and being used to their Ovi maps for quite a while the transistion from Nokia to BB was somewhat horrific, and I still have the few setting issues to smoothen out, but it'll come along eventually. Frankly I need a software for sound editing that I can figure out how to use and that can create MP3's plus I need the time to settle down and get the sounds rigth the way i want them.

At any rate I stumbled across Latitude remembering the how flawless Google maps is, and being presented with the Google navigation used on an Android phone, I knew rigth away the Latitude was the thing I was seeking, I found it/installed it on the BB, yet to my disarray it's not working very well and the navigation isn't working either, at least as intented. I could have lived with the 5-6 hours of battery time having the Compass running non stop. But Latitude and my BB doesn't get along as latitude is not permitted to use the compass or something like that (I'm investigating). After these few weeks it's simply become way unstable though, same with the G+ app for BB. In fact I'm close to getting an extra mobil or pad for this purpose alone.... I've seen one on sales...android. Frankly i migth want it simply to use as a mobile platform. If you know of any good models please let me know so i can have a closer look..

Back to the point enlisting to Latitude, having a Gmail, and finally adding myself to the G+ network (yet another social thing) knowing my affinity for personal disorders (I've got more fake IDs then I have games). I fear that the google network would end up being just another....

Yet i have trouble placing it. Their views on the groupings using circles is rather comforting compared to the usual friend or not friend. Like they for one accept the fact we all interact in different setting. We don't say the same thing to everybody we know, we don't want to listen to everybody we know all the time. Like not all my hobbies doesn't really apply to you, but some of my hobbies migth have a great interest with you.

Yet i can't quite get it to work. One of my major problems is the fact I don't really know what interests me. Google haven't found out yet, I'm sure they will eventually, either that or i simply end up ruining their profiling. (It happens, i mess up my own profiling).
But at least it has potential, funny thing I've realized with Socials is that you effectively have to just drop the privacy settings. It's like either you go all in or you migth as well just stay back.

And this is where I start getting scared. My mind sees complex enough patterns to realized how most of these things work, where we're heading, the effect of what's going on. Stopping it, stemming the tide is a whole other matter. I don't even want to begin trying to understand the effects of my privacy settings, understanding where my information/data ends up etc. But does that mean I should keep everything in the business facade front "I'm running for President".
If that's the case, I should be on any of these things, as that'd be a very gray, rainy world. and frankly I like purple more.
Besides anonymity (being unknown) is not something you can do online anymore. In fact if you want to be incognito you need to stay offline. (profiling stuff gives away insane information if gathered).

I noticed some younger modern tech guys slowly adapting the philosophy that all data was exposed and available to everyone in the near future, and I see where they're going. But will they be rigth, and if not who's gonna stop em. (As opposed to the doctrine that data is owned by the creator, and access is well guarded).
Actually it's a quite funny thing that is currently going on in Denmark.
Everything is officially managed via Social sec. numbers, and a few + all the official channels consider this to be a unique identified that the person knowing this number is the person in the database. Reality is that these numbers listed with names are in fact to common online that anyone using a few minutes can pick up a name and Sec number and use it for what ever they like.
But there you have perceived reality that doesn't quite mix with reality. It's always fun to watch when that clashes. Hell when it happens to you. But at some point some one's gotta see the bigger picture, trouble is whether it's before or after some big scandal...



Okay, if you've been reading all the way down here you migth notice I don't quite have a stringent line of thinking, or criss cross all over the place. I migth, migth not have a point. This is how my mind works. This is what happens when I think out loud. I use the labels? Etiketter? to give a hint what I'm writing down. Just remember I'm merely trying to manage Chaos here. Ohh I love feedback...